Dark Shadow

We gonna miss you, Torres

2011-01-31T15:34:00.000-08:00

We gonna miss you badly, Torres!

The armband song

His armband proved he was a red

Torres, Torres

'You'll never walk alone', it said

Torres, Torres

We bought the lad from sunny Spain

He gets the ball, he scores again

Fernando Torres, Liverpool's number nine!

na nar na nar
na nar na nar
na nar na nar
na nar na nar

Fernando Torres, Liverpool's number nine!

寫不下去了

2010-06-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

我的利物浦今日歷史，
在停筆幾天後才發現，
寫不下去了。

圖片不敢看，
畫面不敢想，

試問，
還有勇氣把文字給寫下去嗎?

很想一次過像德力克先生那樣，
把整篇爛PLAN copy paste在這裡，
懷念一下也好。

welcome to Liverpool

2010-05-29T08:36:00.000-07:00

SymphonyNo.7 in A Major, Allegretto by Beethoven,
absolutely masterpiece.

It create my own atmosphere on the plane,
it build another space for my mind.

Ironically this music was used by the disaster movie 'Knowing',
not to forget the long-take plane crash scene.

Ok, after another 7hours,
served with breakfast and coffee,
here we are in UK.

It was Weixiang who sit beside me in the Abu Dhabi flight to Manchester.
While we are on the sky of Manchester,
I remembered he hand me his camera and said,
'Wei, take some photos for me'.

Here we are, UK, so anticipated liao

After being stucked in airport imigration for hours,
finally we can exit Manchester Airport and we saw LJMU staff are waiting.

Bopet and Weisin wanted to go to toilet,
me and Hsien waiting.

LJMU staff urge us to move,
but we told them we have to wait for someone else.

Everybody is waiting for someone isnt it?

First thing I see in UK,
a young couple were kissing and hugging like nothing happen.

Ofcoz that doesnt shock me la,
but still,
I can start to feel UK already.

Goin out the airport and put in our luggage into the bus,
now I can breath the air in UK.

But damn, the weather is so so hot man,
not like what I imagine lor,
finished my Snicker's bar I bought in KLIA,
take off my jacket,
go into the bus.

But the driver didnt turn on the engine,
go green and energy-savin in UK huh?

So hot, so uncomfortable, cant breath.

Whatsover, on our way to Liverpool,
the scenery is so beautiful.

Green grass, sheep, farms.
Hmm....typical UK highway scenery in fact,
but the firstime is like....you know....
keep snapping photos thiz and that.

Exit from the highway, we are reaching Liverpool soon,
and we saw....

never see this in my whole life,
this is special, this is UK.

OK, reach Liverpool liao~~~
I remembered Elaine said 'Welcome to Liverpool',
and I saw a huge banner written '08 European Capital of Culture'.

This is it, this is the moment.
I am here in Liverpool, finally!!!

Allright,
I think that's all for tonight,
and in the next post I'm gonna flashback to our memorable hostel,
'Atlantic Point'.

Today's history of Liverpool to be continued.

The beginning of Odyssey

2010-05-28T09:57:00.000-07:00

365days ago,
I just wake up from my late nap after finish watching Champions League final,
and I realize it's 3pm something.

My family members are coming home,
everyone seems like very busy and ask me has I prepared.

Some of them just finish schooling,
some of them take half day leave,
just because they want to send me to the airport.

For them,
this is a very historic date,
this is the day when they are proud of their son and brother,
seriously I can feel that in my heart.

I've been checking my passport, offer letter, banker draft and cash for the thousand times,
finally I get to put my luggage into my car.

Another huge hand luggage with Kinder Brueno's design is on my lap,
and a heavy laptop bag (wit laptop ofcoz) below my knees.

Ok, let's go.
First thing to do,
contact with my darling weisin.

She is on her way,
good to hear that.

The moment my dad take the exit to highway,
I can feel that my journey has began,
that's why everytime I drive thru that exit I will automatically think back to this moment.

Here I am in KLIA,
oh my luggage is damn heavy wei.

My sister is searching the luggage trolley for me,
I am stunned in the main entrance,
I don't know what to do.

My mum start searching the trolley for me as well,
me standing in the middle with luggage all over my arms,
I cant do anything.

My mind fly away to another place,
I duno where,
I just feel so.....mixed....yet I feel nothing.

When I go in to the terminal,
ya~ Terminal A~
it's all the way to the end.

First person I see is Derique,
the feeling of excitement is getting stronger,
frankly, if you asked me did I ever feel keberatan to say goodbye to my family at that moment,
my answer is NO.

More and more people are coming.
Friends and family are chatting.
Terminal A become our ABC2 territory.

And then I see Wei Sin,
phew.....
my Liverpool journey will be meaningless without her.

Now we are going to the counter,
check in our big luggage,
it's a long long Q,
and we see YuanChin and Seewei together.

Suddenly we realize we should have write down our Full name and contact number in the STA Travel slip, then tie it up to our luggage.
Ok, start to feel nervous ady.

Whatsoever, in the end we are both happy that we can sit together in the first flight to Abu Dhabi.

Ok, family time.
Everyone go to have their 'last supper' with family.

My family choice is KFC,
I got no mood to eat really, but my mum asked me to eat something first just in case.

Then I see Weixiang.
We met in the Q, then dont know why somehow we met in the toilet,
and I look into the mirror,
oh my passport pouch looks like a bra wei...

Ok, dinner time.
Not much of talking, just some regular but sincere advise.

Remember to do this,
remember to do that.

Then I went to candy shop to buy some chocolate and sweets,
there I met Alric,
as usual he did his arm-wrestle style handshake to me,
and I remember he told me that he gonna need a bubble gum during the flight.

Ok, go back to Terminal A.
People start taking picture.

thank you Liew family

our hair were so short, especially Derique and me,
this is absolutely classic!

After that, me and my family went to a quiet place and we start praying.
My sister lead the blessing prayer, how touch.
Glory to the Lord and thanks Lord for guiding me!

Ok ladies,
it is time,
let's move!

People start saying goodbye, hug and kiss.
I saw Weisin family, I saw Aiyin family, I saw See Yeong family, can't recall anymore.
I saw Eugene Yuin Yue Lydia and many many more.

We took the escalator go down,
we turn our head to behind and wave our hands.

Ok, put aside Duty Free Shop incident and fast fwd to the flight.
Here we are with Etihad Airway.

I just realize Paiwah also sit beside me,
how happy.

She is the one who maintain a stable friendship with me for the past four years,
it was so meaningful, it was so special.

Then we played interactive board games on the flight as well.

~This one is even more special~
She is Godsend (to me).

5pm MAS time, Eason Chan sing with me,
~天氣不似如期，但要走，總要飛~

A memorable picture in Abu Dhabi ,
MAS time 12am.

That's all for the emotional 28th May 2009.
Memories in Liverpool to be continued.

Let's going back to the start

2010-05-27T11:34:00.000-07:00

'I am going back to the start'

Everytime I heard Coldplay sang this part,
I would think about those days in Liverpool.

Today is 28th May, such an emotional day for me, seriously,
just as how I felt last year in the same day.

Not because this is the day Manchester United were defeated by Barcelona in the Champions League Final, but this is the day me and my friends are ready to depart to Liverpool.

~28May2009~
This is the day we all should remember,
this is the day we made history.

Yeah!!!

How I wish I can go back to the start,
even if I knew that I have to suffer so much for the assignment loads,
I don't mind, because I am sure it is worth.

My memory in Liverpool is priceless,
no one can take that away from me,
it's in my heart.

Even if I have the chance to go back Liverpool one day in future,
I am sure the feeling is different and those days in Liverpool....it will never ever happen again.

Everyone tell me to look forward, yes I did,
but those days in Liverpool still never fade away, because I can't let go.

I have decided not to let go,
I have decided to become a person that doesnt move forward,
because of Liverpool.

Because I want to remember.
It's bittersweeet, and I like that.

No matter how suffer everytime I think back,
I still never regret for not letting it go.

Memory is cruel, especially those which is special.
It makes you remember, no matter good or bad,
that's the suffering part.

But memory also start fading away day by day,
and if you don't make yourself remember that,
it could disappear in the near future,
and that's another suffering part.

Whatsoever,
as I mentioned earlier,
I have decided not to let go and continue suffering,
because I am sure I wont regret.

The biggest lost in one life,
is not wasting your time to keep thinking about these old days,
but instead it's you yourself who tend to forget these old days.

Today onwards,
I will start writing Today's history in my blog,
particularly on what happened to me in UK 365days ago.

And now,
the time is 3am++,
365days ago I guess I am packing up my luggage thiz and that,
checking my mobile charger and battery all these stuff,
most important is Passport and Banker Draft and LJMU offer letter, some British pound in cash ofcourse.

I can't sleep on 365days ago,
I can't sleep tonight either.

The difference is,
I was so anticipate towards the UK journey with hope and excitement,
and I am so so so 'XXXXX' (out of my words to describe my feeling) right now.

Oh God,
dear God....

El Nino's future

2010-05-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

When the players salute Anfield crowd in the last Liverpool home game this season,
Torres looks like a leaving man.

And I think to myself,

'thanks Liverpool, thanks Anfield, thanks Carlsberg, thanks Kop, thanks Chelsea fans' applause, and if Torres you would leave this summer I wont hate you'

Yes, it has been a heavy speculation and rumours saying that Torres could leave Anfield this summer after Liverpool failed to qualify Champions League.

For me, I always remain calm when I heard and read about this kinda negative news, whether it is true or not I always tell myself, as a fans, I cant do anything.

It is very understandable once a big team went thru a terrible season, their best players would slided into the transfer rumours.

But if Torres would leave, I wont blame him, definitely.
He is such a genius, and he is so talented, the most danger weapon ever since Gabriel Batistuta.

22goals in 33games, his productivity in such underdog situation and injury-plagued season is terrifying indeed.

In terms of percentage (22divide33, do your math), I bet Drogba and Rooney cant do that.

Which is why, everyone is talking about how high possibility is Torres could leave, because that would translate to a great news for Liverpool rival.

Chelsea seems impossible to get Torres, then the media start switching the focus to Spanish football, they just simply get excited just like their readers do.

As a fans, I cant make a clear statement for him and say, 'Torres wont leave'
But ofcourse, no ppl in Anfield want him to leave.

In fact, Liverpool owe him a huge apology for not being able to qualify in Champions League next season, I mean he came all the way from Madrid to Merseyside just because he want to play in a top-tier competition.

3years wait, but no one single-trophy he can lift.

The moment Athletico Madrid win the Europa League, I am sure Torres can imagine 'what would happen to me if I were still in Madrid'.

Let's think in a rational way, Torres could be leaving this summer, no joke.
Everyone can have their own choice, to pursue for their dream.

But nobody know what will happen in Anfield next season.
When Liverpool was crowned as the Cream of Europe in 2005, they also just went thru some silverware drought season.

This is the time for Torres to decide, and to show his commitment.
Most importantly, his patience.

Liverpool has been a weaker side in Premier League for the last 20years but they are always great in playing cup tie.
I am sure Torres would achieve something if he stay.

But still, if he leave, I wont blame him.
I wish him good luck, but please dont let me see him wearing the Blue Shirt, it's gotta be heartbreaking.

'Sorry Torres, we let you down.
Your goal-scoring record and effort proved that you shouldnt get the blame for this terrible season.'

After all, Torres never say that he is leaving anyway,
that's a fact.

So, media speculation to excite our Malaysian Man.U fans is undoubtful.
The intention of feeding and the willingness of getting fed are two inconvenient truth.

England captaincy

2010-05-18T08:38:00.000-07:00

Liverpool defender Jamie Carragher has come out of international retirement to be part of Capello's 30-man provisional squad for next month's World Cup finals.

Personally I dun think tats a sensational news, ofcourse Carragher would be pleased to hear the recruitment, but whether he can qualify for the last 23men or not, this I am not really sure.

Liverpool English players had been underrated all these years, and it get worsen since the arrival of Steve McClaren, Carragher is the best example, that's why he quit national team in 2007.

Who in the world can make a fair decision to choose two centre defenders among Terry, Ferdinand, and Carragher?

But the sad thing for Carragher is, he has been neglected even during the earlier Sol Campbell's period.

McClaren insist to Manchesterdize the English national team proved that it was a mistake, and the failure to qualify European Championship proved him wrong.

Fabio Capello is well-known for his strict and demanding coaching style, his willingness to use non Big Four players is a fantastic break-out, and the comfortable qualification to 2010 World Cup proved that.

But since Terry take off his armband, one major question that everyone is talking about is, who will be the England skipper in S.Africa?

Ferdinand, or Gerrard?

As a Liverpool fans, if you asked me ofcourse I would prefer Gerrard because he has everything required to be a skipper.

Gerrard can attack and he can also defend, he control the midfield and he has the ability to boost up team morale.

But, this can only apply on Liverpool.

In England, he cant perform.
It's not his problem actualy, in fact it is the phenomenon that hinder his capability.

So, if you asked me,
who would be the better England skipper? I would say, Ferdinand, if not, Terry.

Gerrard? no way.

There are only three Liverpool players who are selected into England national team, in terms of percentage tat is actually accounted to 100% because Johnson, Carragher and Gerrard are the only three English players in Liverpool.

If Gerrard become the captain for England, I dont think he can earn a fair respect from his team mate because many players would thought that he do not deserved that as Liverpool has just went thru a horrible season.

How can a skipper of a club, who can only secure the 7th place in premier league, lead the national team to the glory road of S.Africa?

I believe that Gerrard is the best captain in the world, no one can give inspiration to the team and fans like he did.

But, he is definitely not a suitable captain for England. It's not gonna work, I really wish he can prove me wrong, I would be glad to see him lift up the World Cup as England captain.

Put aside Arsenal, who didnt contribute much for England squad these years, Chelsea and Manchester United both have some experienced captaincy level players like Terry and Lampard, Neville and Ferdinand. They are all good candidates for England captaincy, though Terry has given up.

But for the captain and vice-captain of Liverpool, Gerrard and Carragher, it's cruel and sad to accept the truth, but the whole phenomenon disallowed them to shine in national team.

And I say, 'Let it be, just do your duty if you're goin to S.Africa.'

So ya, Ferdinand is the most suitable player to take the captaincy in World Cup.
This I make myself very clear.

what would Liverpool do?

2010-05-01T22:42:00.000-07:00

If one does not realize how important for Liverpool to lose their match tonight against Chelsea, they certainly do not truly understand the history of the city and their club rivalry.

If you wish Liverpool to win tonight, you are not a Liverpool fans.

This is a truth, that's why many Manchester United fans said, 'For the first in my life-time I will support Liverpool tonight'

And I say, 'For the first in my life-time I wish Liverpool to lose a game'

The only chance for Liverpool to rescue their terrible season, is to lose their game tonight at Anfield, this is indeed a very weird statement from a Liverpool fans like me, but in fact this is what Liverpool FC supporter from Merseyside wish to see.

It is true that Chelsea is the most competitive rival with Liverpool in Benitez era, their European clash is always massive.

But when we talk about football fierce rival, the hatred between Liverpool and Manchester United is much more serious.

And if you study the history of both city, their rival is not only because of football, but it can even trace back to the reformed industrial era when Liverpool was heavily rely on port industry.

I cant see a reason why Liverpool need to win tonight, if they did, I bet Ferguson wont thank them for that, and the fans, dont even think about that.

Ferguson swore that one day in future he would bring MU to be crowned as the best football club in England, they are so near at this moment.

And this is what Liverpool fans do not wish to see, definitely.

SinChew paper wrote on their headline stated, 利物浦沒有資格放水。
They use a very harsh word indeed.

But I questioned that,
Spurs and M.City victory lastnite has shown that Liverpool top4 dream is only mathematically possible.

With 2games in hand, I dont think Spurs will slip to Liverpool when they only need to get 1point.

Think about that Liverpool, what would you get even if you win Chelsea?
Ferguson and fans wont thank you, and the victory will not restore our dissapointment anyway.

So, I suggest Rafa to give up this game.
This is what I think from a stalwart point of view.

~NOW~
let's talk about this match in a rational point of view.

People has been talk about Liverpool's stand in this match, mainly because the media and press keep on raising this issue.

If we analyze Liverpool situation and form this season, it is fair enough to say that Liverpool could lose to Chelsea even if they make put full strength.

Nowadays, EPL is different.
When we talk about Big Team clash, playing at home doesnt give you advantage anymore.
That's why Arsenal was beaten by MU in Emirates and MU was beaten by Chealsea in Old Trafford.

This kinda result doesnt surprise me really.
So, even if Liverpool try hard tonight, they might lose to Chelsea.

Another thing which many people have been neglected,
would MU secure a victory againsnt Sunderland?
and what would happen in the 38th fixtures?

No one know.
So, tonight match is important and crucial, but not decisive.

Liverpool would has another reason to lose this match, not just because they want to stop MU, but also because of the financial issue.

We all know that the two bloody Americans are ready to sell the club this summer, THANK GOD!

But their offering price was 800million pound, if Liverpool cant qualify Champions League for the next season, the positive thing is that the club value will automatically decrease, and the new potential buyer has a reason to negotiate with current owners, which translate to about 500million pound.

Ofcourse, if Liverpool lose their top4 spot, they will lose the Champions League fund.
But who cares about those fund if Liverpool can find a new owner and he is willing to spend very very much more money than the American, and atleast see some progession on Stanley Park.

It is a terrible season for Liverpool, we cant find any excuse to them for not getting criticized.
This I agree.

But what I am saying here is that, Liverpool need a revive.
Lost the 4th spot this season and Champions League next season is a nightmare for Liverpool, because Torres will be the most dissapointed man, and he could leave.

However, what would Liverpool achieve even if they can play Champions League next season?
who can guarentee that they will win that trophy?

No offence, but look at Chelsea and Arsenal, they never fail to qualify all this while, but they never won the trophy, what is the point if you can play every year but you know you will end up in failure.

If you analyze the whole picture for Liverpool FC, what they really need today is money and a new owner, to revive.

Then, I am sure they will be back to top 4 next season.

Surprisingly, Ferguson and his fans praise Liverpool football in a pre-match talk, to boost up our morale and spirit.
This is a very good psychological war indeed.

If Liverpool win today, they will meet their target.
If Liverpool lose today, they might criticize their football.

But if Liverpool were to put reserve team tonight, Fergie cant blame anyone because he was the best example of this situation.

Years back, his purposely lost to Derby County, made their city rival Manchester City relegated.
Then, Ferguson also allow his disciple Bryan Robson to steal some points so that West Brom can survive.

So, if Liverpool lose tonight, whether they have to intention or not,
Ferguson and his fans has nothing to complain.

After all, Chelsea is a better side this season, I think they deserve the title.

heartbreaking Europa night

2010-05-01T11:09:00.000-07:00

It was a heartbreaking night for the Reds at Anfield after Liverpool beat Atletico Madrid 2-1 on the night, but crashed out on away goals.

Liverpool's Europa League dream was cruelly brought to an end as Diego Forlan's extra-time strike saw Atletico Madrid progress into the final on the away goals rule.

Alberto Aquilani levelled up the tie with a well-taken volley. The 90minutes game ended in 1-0 and aggregate 1-1.

Benayoun put Liverpool ahead when the Israeli score the second goal for Reds in extra-time.

But the home side's joy was short, as Forlan easy goal tie the aggregate score at 2-2 and ensure it is Atletico who will contest the Europa League final.

I do not wish to find excuse for Liverpool's exit in Europa League.
But certainly there are many reasons, unlucky incidents happened that affect the match result, which Liverpool had experienced many times already in the entire season.

Frankly, after Fabregas's handball when Gerrard's last minute free-kick was taken in Emirates Stadium, I felt nothing anymore everytime bad decision go against Liverpool, such as Valencia's 'semi-diving' into the penalty box and Manchester United scored the equiliser penalty in Old Trafford.

The fact is, two Liverpool goals were taken away by the referee, first was Benayoun's break of offside trap in Vicente Calderon, another was Agger's header into the left bottom corner at Kop stand.

Two Liverpool goals were judged as offside, but to be honest it is not. In fact, Forlan's goal is more likely to be offside. I said more likely, because I wasnt 100% sure. But the two Liverpool disallowed goals, I am absolutely sure it was a wrong judgement, twice.

No anger, just dissapointment...seriously...this is what I felt after Liverpool exit.

Im proud of the team that night and the fans,
if you watched the match you will understand what Im saying.

The fans show their loyalty and present another fantastic European night atmosphere in Anfield.

And the team~
no complain at all.

Rafa put the strongest selection in starting line-up,
the problem is, he take off our goal scorers, but I understand that because a 120minutes game is indeed very very exhausting.

Liverpool play really well againt Atletico Madrid in Anfield, one of the best performance they ever present this season, they show their character and play their football, a unique Liverpool way.

Gerrard, Benayoun, and Aqua;s passing were fantastic, so smooth, so fluent, beautiful football.
There was a top-class moment before Aqua score the first goal, where the lads made a pin-ball movement and breakthru Madrid's defence, what a team work, it's been a while really, that's Liverpool football.

Too bad Gerrard didnt participate much on Liverpool attack that night, it's either he was getting exhausted or his midfield defensive burden was heavy.

Forlan's goal is very crucial, I wont blame on the goal scorer because he didnt dive and he never cheat, in fact I always like Forlan for his scoring ability under criticism.

But Forlan really made me heart-breaking, everything is under control and work in order, Liverpool was so near to make another Germany trip since Houllier's treble.

Ofcourse, if you asked me, I would say it was Johnson's fault because he always run to an unfamiliar position and he is being too offensive, hence neglected his defensive role.

The only thing I dont understand is the new UEFA rule, which allows the away goal in extra-time to be considered as an aggregate advantage.

I am not really sure when did UEFA change this rule, in fact I never realize that.
Many Liverpool fans still canot understand why we were knocked out of the cup.

Because according to the previous rule, away goals advantage only exist in two-legs 180minutes.
Liverpool lose 0-1 in Spain, and they equalize the aggregate in Anfield to 1-1.

So, when Benayoun and Forlan score in extra-time, the aggregate was 2-2 and the game was suppose to bring in into a penalty shoot-out, which we all know it was Liverpool favourite because they never lost in a penalty shoot-out for more than 10years.

So, why is Forlan's goal counted as an away goal?
I dont understand.

Maybe UEFA has changed their rule and I wasnt updated.
But even if they really did, I think this rule is very unfair for Liverpool because this will translate to Atletico Madrid has extra 30minutes to get a precious away goal.

Despite all this issue, not forget to mention Liverpool's Oddessey trip to Madrid because of Iceland's volcano ashes. All of these things I mentioned above, is not my excuse why Liverpool was being knocked out, in fact the team never blame on the plane issues.

But the thing is, Liverpool play a really fantastic football at Anfield that night, they seriously deserved to win, although the word ~deserved~ is always debatable.

After all, I feel heartbreaking on our Europa exit, but still,
I feel proud to become a Liverpool FC stalwart when I see the lads were trying so hard and give in everything.

You will never alone, never ever....
not even if you lose your place in Champions League,
not even if you lose your position to be named as Big Four,
not even if you relegate.

If you do, I would use online-streaming to watch your match.
YES i will, but I hope it wont happen lar ofcoz.

Last Carlsberg original featured in Anfield

2010-04-29T10:22:00.000-07:00

Liverpool will wear Carlsberg on their shirts for the final time at Anfield this weekend, but it'll be with a difference.

The Danish brewers' name has adorned the Reds jersey at every home game over the last 18 years, but as Carlsberg prepare to sign off as the club's shirt sponsors at the end of the season their name will be displayed in Chinese language for the clash with Chelsea on Sunday.

With Liverpool the only UK city exhibiting at World Expo in Shanghai, Carlsberg officials came up with the idea of interacting with the club's massive fan base in China.

This will translate to, Liverpool will wear the original Carlsberg on their jersey for the last time at Anfield tonight, a second-leg Europa League semi-final against Atletico Madrid.

As much as I love the sponsor ,18 years with them and no premier league title.
Hopefully the Chinese font will change our luck.

Whatsoever, the jersey will never be the same without Carlsberg on it, but what to do?
Carlsberg's amount of sponsorship is among the lowest if compare to other big English teams, perhaps this is the right time to restart everything all over again.

Liverpool and Carlsberg billateral relationship has shown their loyalty, I am sure the fans will feel weird without seeing Carlsberg on the jersey.

The atmosphere of the match against Atletico Madrid is gonna be fantastic, let's hope that the lightning will strike for the third time in Anfield, and Liverpool shall overturn the deficit with the help of Kop's roar and chants like how they did against Lille and Benfica.

It is true that Liverpool is the first English team that was being knocked out in Champions League this season, but not many people would expect Liverpool is the only Big Four that is able to remain in European cup tie at this moment, and together with Fulham, they both restored the pride of England after Manchester United and Arsenal both failed to qualify semi-final.

Yeah, Europe League is not really something for some people, but when you realize how terrible Liverpool was during the entire season, you will know how important and how desperate they need to win tonight.

8August09, Liverpool pre-season friendly match against Atletico Madrid @ Anfield.

Co-incidentally, the fixtures come true, but let's wish the result will not repeat later.
But ofcourse, after what Liverpool has went thru this season, I must say a silverware cant replace our dissapointment, but atleast it can serve as a consolation for us.

~YNWA~ and keep in faith....
atleast for the next 2hours, hehe!

Remembering Hillsborough

2010-04-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

21 years ago over 20,000 LFC fans went to watch the 1989 FA Cup semi-final against Nottingham Forest. 96 never returned home.

Today, in 15th April, Liverpool Football Club will be remembering each of those who lost their lives in Hillsborough, Sheffield.

Unfortunately, to date, nobody in authority has been punished for their role in what happened that day.

You will never walk alone.

The Sun’s controversial headline of reporting Hillsborough Disaster 1989 is an example of the moral panics issue. In Hillsborough Disaster, The Sun overstretched their power of influence to dominate this controversial issue for commercial interest.

The Truth by The Sun

The Sun distribute the front-page headline “THE TRUTH”, with three sub-headlines,
written

“Some fans picked pockets of victims”,
“Some fans urinated on the brave cops”,
“Some fans beat up PC giving kiss of life”.

These headlines contradict to the truth that Liverpool fans actually helped the security personnel for carried away the victims and giving first-aid to the injured.

The Sun not only distorted the truth, but they also wrote “THE TRUTH” in all capital letters in the front-page headline, which is eye-catching to the reader.

The Truth by Kop

These over-dramatized and sensationalized headlines are biased, and it misleads the public to stereotype Liverpool F.C. fans as a threat to society.

The Sun overstretch their power to dominate public opinion, to see football hooligan as the cause of Hillsborough Disaster.

The Sun did not blame the police for their mismanagement, but they were shifting the focus to blame on Liverpool F.C. fans.

The Sun treat Hillsborough Disaster as an opportunity to make money, because they realize mass injury disaster can be used to create chaos and it can get immediate reward.

The Sun manipulate the controversial issue by accusing Liverpool F.C. fans for urinating on the cops. In this case, Liverpool F.C. fans do not have their chance to defend themselves.

The media has distorted the truth and sensationalized the news for social affairs newsworthy, and this is not acceptable.

Today, you wont see The Suns in Liverpool,
never....ever....

Liverpool Memorial
taken by me on 8August2009.

I have seen this memorial with my own eye,
I cant say that I understand how the Liverpooldian and Kop fans feel,
but I definitely felt the sorrow and pain when I saw their face.

Hillsborough Disaster 1989,
shall not be forgotten.

May the 96fans R.I.P.,
God bless their family.

from student to JOB

2010-04-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

Now we are no longer student, but an employee, a worker, doesnt really matter how do you call it.

I have found a phenomenon among friends, people start talking about their own job, their own working life....bla bla....but seldom we talk about those days we went thru together as a student.

It's nice to have new chapter in our life and we move on,
that's a good and mature attitude.

But, I think most of the time,
people wanted to get others' attention about happen to his/her working life,
they learn when to talk but they forget when to listen.

First of all, as I always did, I need to clarify that this blog entry doesnt meant to criticize any single person that I met in my life, but in fact I only wish to criticize the phenomenon.

When we were labelled as student, all of us were same, is like, we have the same blood in our body and we were wearing the same flesh and cloths.
That unify all of us.

But the working life actually separate all of us into different kind of job category.
Now, we have friends who work for media, non-media, production, non-production, office, non-office, thiz and that.

The problem of the people is,
they wish other people can understand more about themselves,
but they doesnt realize the same+opposite conversation intention.

Which is why,
I found one huge problem in a group conversation is that,
people cant stop talking about what happen to themselves without listening to the others.

Now, why do we need gathering?
why do we need chit-chating session?
why do we need to meet up?
why do we need to talk?

Ofcourse it is meant for one to share his/her story to the other, vice-versa.
I didnt mean that one should not talk about his/her story in a group conversation, don't get me wrong.
What I mean is, we should start listening to the other.

There are people who need our help and encouragement,
I knew some of my friends are having a bad time, they are not happy, but nobody is there to listen.

I believe everyone cares about the others in the world,
but I also believe many ppl is too careless to neglect the others who need cares.

I have seen many meaningless group conversation, no point.
I didnt mean that every single conversation must have point, but atleast the minimum requirement is that everyone can participate in the conversation.

When we were student, we share the same laughter and same jokes,
but now I have seen different sub-conversations among a group gathering.

And when one didnt get enough attention in a group conversation,
he/she will start mumbling and complaining how bad their job are,
then when one start gaining attention he/she will start to show off how good their job are.

Example,
First phase: Aiya, my job very susah la, everyday do this everyday do that, so tired lar.
Second phase: But then nvmla~~~~alternative 1. I can see this superstar, 2. I can get many freegift, 3. I can know more people then good for my future, 4. my company pay me well...

Once again, dont get me wrong, no offence to any one of my fren.

The problem, or phenomenon is~~
I found many one of us actually like our job, and the worse part is, they want to prove it that their job is better than the other.

I have heard one bloody fool said,
'Aiya, you guys sit at aircon room don't understand our painful experience wanla'

It doesnt sounds like a complain, it sounds like an insult for person who work in aircon room.

Today I tell you what,
if that bloody fool has one chance in a lifetime to sit in an aircon room,
HE WOULD DEFINITELY SIT ON THE COUCH AND BARK~"Harr.......'' like a dog.
because now he would realize how great it is to rest inside an aircon room.

He is talking like~
those people who sit inside an aircon room is a fucking lazy pig who dont understand the meaning of working.

He is the one who choose to become he himself,
who he is right now,
no one is forcing him in fact.

The problem is, he is actually enjoying his working life,
and he want to prove that he is better by insulting the other.

Now what hinder the progress of sharing story is that,
this person has building a wall or creating a boundary betwen he himself with the other.

Working in an aircon room or an office shouldnt become a reason of one being insulted and working in a non-aircon location doesnt mean that you have something to shout or to be proud of, vice versa.

After all, this is our job.
Everyone should pay respect to the others and stop creating boundary with each other because of different working life.

Non-media thinks the media cannot earn money.
Media thinks the non-media are not loyal to their studying subject.

Production people thinks they are cool,
non-production people thinks production people are KULI.

People who work in big and famous company thinks that they are greater,
what is the point in the end?

For me, I work in both field before, non-production and production, non-media and media.
I enjoy all of these jobs really.

What matter the most, is what I learned, not what I earned~in terms of job position or title.

Is that really important to become a so called DIRECTOR but actually you're not one?

I am a reporter now,
but what define me as a news reporter is not what the job position written in my namecard,
in fact, it is what I know and what I am capable of.

I always believe that anyone can be a news reporter,

listen and salin only ma, how susah could it be?
you try try and see lar, then you will know it is not easy.

Ofcourse everyone can be a reporter,
But, the difference is, are you one good reporter?

As a biz reporter, some people actually told me that entertainment news reporter is like a dog.
I refuse to believe that, it's their job anyway.

The difference of biz reporter and E-news reporter is the news they covered,
but that doesnt make one identity greater than another.

If I can choose again, I will choose to expose myself to biz news instead of E-news,
no doubt about that.

But one thing for sure, my decision is not based on the dog a.k.a. Paparazzi issue,
but instead I wish to learn more about biz news as I found it is more important and solid than the E-news do.

After all, different type of reader or audiences need to consume different kind of news.
We're equally important.

This is real working life, not internship.
A job position as cameraman, producer, writer, senior thiz senior that, professional thiz professional that doesnt define you as a succesful person, but it is your own capability who make you who you are.

So,
Please, go ahead to find a high-salary job,
go ahead to find your favourite job,
go ahead to find a job nearby your house,
go ahead to find an office-admin job,
go ahead to sell insurance,
go ahead to do your production.

I support you, my friend.
Really, I do.

As long as you're happy, then go ahead.
We all should learn how to respect, but not insulting the others.

We need a job, we need to earn money to survive.
It's their job anyway, not yours, why bother?

I know this entry is quite sharp, but frankly, the phenomenon is what I wish to emphasize, not the people.

Bear in mind, no offence~no offence~
But if you insist to get offended, go f**k yourself!

This is JT a.k.a. Dark Shadow,
good night,
and good luck.

my movie dream

2010-03-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

just have a quick dinner with my best mate Ah Hem,
we talk alot about movies, as we usual did.

We talk about Dark Knight, we talk about Inglourious Basterds.
It was an interesting conversation indeed.

Somehow I really miss the production world,
I like my current job,
but I always remind myself,
how much I love movie before, and how much Im gonna stick with good movies forever.

But,
I dont need to remind myself actually.

It's in my heart,
the passion,
the love,
it's deep inside my heart.

I love movie,
and I love good movie,
my passion to the movies will never die.

imbalance

2010-02-21T09:40:00.000-08:00

I wasnt in a good mood recently,
the reason is simple.

I found tat it is pretty hard to find the balance between being funny and gaining respect.
It always happen to me I guess, and I knew some of my friends face the same problem, friends like Aiyin, and we talked about that when we were in Liverpool.

Yes, I think it is really difficult to become a funny person, yet people can respect you.
Because most of the time, the boundary of people laughing with you or laughing at you is unclear.

All this while, I try to become a funny person that bring laughter to people, and I knew some of my friends appreciate me for doing that.

But ofcourse, there are some poeple who treat funny person as a buffoon, and in certain extent I found that these people's reaction or response is actually too much, and they probably didnt realize it.

When you are taking the role as a funny person in a group,
people tends to treat you like a friendly, easy-going, close friend.
People laugh when they are talking with you, people smile when they are looking at you.

But out of certain extent there are somes who treat you like an idiot or fools, who never grow up with a childish attitude.
These people dont appreciate your role really, they dont really care about you, they wanted to see you so that they can laugh at you.

At this point, I have found that many of these people had totally forget the role of the funny person took in the group.
When one has taken this role too often, people no longer laugh with you, but they laugh at you.

And I think I know how to interpret the diffrence between laugh with me or laugh at me,
just that I cant distinguish these two things when I needed to.

Sometimes, I dont even know who am I and who I want to be.
People who know me well should realize that I have actually multiple characters (like anybody else, perhaps I have few more) and it depends on which occasion, location, and the group I'm in to become who I want to be.

If you asked me,
I think I wasnt that funny,
and I wasnt that serious.

But one thing for sure,
I want respect.

Not that kinda respect which you need to give me a tribute,
but the respect that shown that you appreciate me for being myself.

Human is sensitive,
and I think I know what it feels like if (when) people are laughing at me,
at that moment the feeling is always strong, and I know someone is insulting me.

Dont get me wrong,
I am happy to be myself,
I am rily please to become a person that owns multiple characters,
sometimes it feels good when you can switch roles in different occasions,
some might claim it is tired to put on the mask,
who wasnt huh? but still I think no matter which character I am taking, as long as that's me then I am please.

Who the true side of myself?
Again, I think I wasnt that funny or that serious.
I am just me, and I am happy to be me.

Until today, I still feel happy for taking the multiple roles among friends.
and Im sure I will continue to serve this need as long as my friends like it.

Once again, I think I need to clarify,
I am still happy, like Aiyin did.

But I can't pretend myself like a fool and idiot when I get insult and act like nothing happen.
In many cases, I think I am not happy with the way people react, they repeat, repeat and repeat...
Still I didnt change my character, because if I did, that certainly means I was wrong previously.

One last thing that cross into my mind when I am saying 'just be myself',
I think I am not an extremist to label myself as me myself.

A person tat believe blindly in the theory of 'be myself' is problematic,
because he/she couldnt accept criticism and these people dont often apologize.

When they have do something wrong,
they don't admit that it was their fault,
but in an opposite position,
they blame the others for not accepting themselves for being who they are.

I think this kinda extremist mindset is sick.
If one who think 'be yourself' is the greatest character that everyone should own,
I am sure that 'be yourself' is only an excuse to wipe-off your fault.

When one criticize you,
you can't just say 'I'm just being me myself, so fuck off if you dont like the real me'

Can you imagine what would happen to this world if everyone owns this kinda mindset?

So,
who is the real me?
am I being the true side of me myself all this while?

I dont really know,
because if I did,
that would translate to 'I am a person who know myself and be myself',
then when one criticize me I shall tell them 'I'm just being me myself, so fuck off if you dont like the real me'

But I wont say that.
You see, I am not an extremist.

My point is, it is impossible to understand yourself and being yourself at the same time.
Everyone has their own weaknesses, and they would like to hide it ofcourse.
Are you sure you are being yourself when you are saying that?

To be yourself, is pretty easy actually.
You dont have to analyze your own character, you just be yourself.
Be yourself who bring laughter to the others, and be yourself who might make someone angry to you.

That's yourself.

So, the only chance that conflicts could happen,
is the moment that one who being himself/herself is doing that in the wrong time.

Again, I repeat, I wasnt that funny or serious,
and when I am slighty slanting against either side,
I think I am being a real me myself, but at the same time, I am not.

After all, it wasnt that important to study one character whether he/she is being himself/herself or not.
Respect is still a very fundamental thing in making friends, and I think this element is even greater than 'faith' and 'loyalty' when we are talking about friendship.

Eventhou 'respect' can be shown in people's action or words and 'faith' and 'loyalty' live in our heart, but without 'respect' I think the friendship is dead anyway.

And since the matter of respect is totally off, in the end I think faith and loyalty wasnt that important anymore.

lonely Double Happiness

2010-02-15T05:10:00.000-08:00

this year so call 'Double Happiness' mah,
Chinese New Year CHOR YAT and Valentine's Day together,
but I can say frankly,
I never feel so boring and lonely in CNY.

Family is heading to Thailand,
girlfriend balik kampong to Ipoh,
friends all busy thiz and busy that.

I never feel so lonely really.
Most of the time,
I can find this bunch of fren when that bunch of fren is not there,
and that bunch of fren when this bunch of fren is not here.

But this year,
hmm.....
it's pretty sad huh....

Well I guess we all hv grow up aye?
Yesterday we were talking about having gathering this and that,
CNY must come out meet up and LOU SANG together.

But today we are talking about go back hometownsss,
not only our own hometown,
and also our love partner's hometown, if not, it's their house.

We are all looking forward to a new life,
new friend, and the love one that you probably gonna spend your rest of the life with.
They are more important for you isnt ?

I mean,
I am not complaining like a child la,
but seriously I feel so uncomfortable for the change this year,
since we start working already.

Life is short,
we all should only spend time for the one who deserve it right?
There is no point for visiting a friend that he/she has no longer close to you wasnt it?

Perhaps when we were stil a kids we always think about angpao angpao,
but I guess today the true meaning of visiting a friend and relatives are much more important than the angpao huh?

What is the point of getting alot of angpao's from a friend's parent while your relationship with your friend is not good anymore?
Can you feel the joy?
Can you feel the happiness?
and do you really think that this angpao money can make you richer?

Seriously,
I know I shouldnt say this kinda things in CNY,
you know Chinese ppl always like to hear good things in CNY,
they are fake, they are stupid, they like to get self-comfort,
the person who say the wishes doesnt really mean it but the person who hear it simply can't resist it.

That's the problem of Chinese culture,
Christmas bring peace and Hari Raya bring forgiveness,
personally I think these occasions are much more meaningful wasnt it?

But my point here is,
is not to criticize CNY,
and I am proud to be a Chinese ofcourse,

but the thing is,
when we keep on doing same things and saying same wishes every year,
repeat and repeat,
we are celebrating the CNY for the sake of CNY,
what a waste really.

In the end,
we might forget the true meaning of CNY and visiting friends/family house.

Everytime we celebrate A Chinese New Year,
we tends to hope that good things will come in the 365days ahead,
but we already forget that the previous 365days has already lost in space.

I wish I didnt spoil the CNY mood,
but when you are seeing less old faces and more new faces during the family reunion,
you knew you are getting older and your elder relatives are leavin you....year by year....

In the case like that,
are you still in mood to wish your relatives 'Gong Xi Fatt Chai' while you didnt mean it?

why i say my life is perfect

2010-02-08T07:37:00.001-08:00

I can give you thousands of reason why I say my life is happy.

But to tell you why I say my life is perfect,
I don't need to talk much.

Just back from the preach at PGRM,
try to learn more and more by weekly,
soul is fed.

Then when I get back to my home,
hot noodles is prepared by mum right after I finish my shower,
body is fed.

What else do I need?
If this is not considered as 'perfect', I think I am out of idea to define this word.

I do not deserve this

2010-02-03T07:53:00.000-08:00

Last week Redtone's CEO held a press night at One World Hotel, to officially lauch his new television network on subscription based, called DETV, which its broadband technology is first introduced in Malaysia.

Basically press night is a social event that a company's boss invite all the media to join them for a launching event, got dinner served and many fab. prize to win.

My photographer asked me to join him, so be it, let's go.

That night, I have see another picture yet again.
It's about the classification of human.

I saw the hotel waiter and waitress being scolded by their captain for like 1000times when I work as a video crew lastime.
It's a pretty ordinary image for me really.

But on that day,
it was my first time seated on the dining chair and serve with food on the dining table.

I feel uncomfortable really.
I think to myself.
What is the difference between me and the waiter?

Both of us are human, both of us are men.
What makes me sit here and what makes him stand there?
What makes me enjoy the food and what makes him serve the food for me?

Do I deserve this?
No, I do not.

Which is why,
everytime he pour the water and wine for me,
I say 'Thank you'.
Deep inside my heart I say THANK YOU.

everytime he change my plate and bowl I say 'Thank you'.
deep inside my heart I say 'THANK YOU'.

I really feel uneasy.

I saw a Chinese man who shouted at the waiter and ask him 'Go away, go now, go serve the wine for the people at that table, go now!'

Then when the waiter leave,
he laugh at the waiter and make jokes of the waiter with his friend.

WTF?
It was so embarrassing man.
Shame on him,
he definitely bring shame to the Chinese people.

HE YELL AT THE WAITER LIKE YELLING AT THE DOG.

This I wil always remember.
After I finish my study in UK,
I have learned that people should have identity equality, eventhough in reality this is not possible.

But in UK,
they tends to make it as its best as they could.

Atleast the garbage man is a white man,
and people respect this job.

As a student that was once study in oversea,
I knew how hard for one to live in a brand new environment by themselves.

Eventhough my English is sufficient enough to communicate with UK people.
Eventhough I didnt face racist issue out there.

But,
The way people talk to you,
the way people look at you.

~The Fear~ I cannot describe.

Why is this Chinese fella want to humilate the waiter?
I really cannot stand it, I really cannot make myself to see this happen.

It was a heartbreaking moment really.
I have no appetite at all that night.

The incident strike my feeling strongly.

Since then,
I tell myself,
I do not deserve to sit at the dining chair really.

It was my parents who give me good education,
so that I have found a job,
and being invited to the press night.

In fact,
I didnt do anything that I can feel proud of myself,
that makes me sit at that dining chair.

And ofcourse the waiter didnt do anything that he should feel ashame of himself,
that makes him stand behind my dining chair and serve me food.

I sit there because I am a Malaysian who is well-educated.
He stand behind me because he is a foreign labour.

That's simple.
Just that's simple.

I do not deserve it,
I simply do not deserve this.

Sitting on that dining chair,
makes me fear.

p/s: my opinion in this incident doesnt applicable in many other places like fast food restaurant, cafe and bla bla bla.....

some of our bloody Malaysian waiter and waitress did gave me some fucked up service and still dare to take service charge in my bill.

These people do not even respect to their own job,
what is the point of respecting them?

very unproductive

2010-02-02T05:42:00.000-08:00

This blog entry could offend many people,
but I dont give a damn.

I read another negative news about Steven Tea Garden today,
and it reminds me of last year my friends asked me to join STG membership.

I did not write this blog with hatred,
but I did it with anger,
I just want to prove that how fool are these people to think that they can achieve something without sacrifice anything.

This was not the firstime I have been invited to listen to direct-sales talk.
In fact, I went couple of times.

Why I refuse to believe in direct-sales?
the reason is simple.

Direct-sale is unproductive.

It's all about making money,
pyramid shape, tower shape, staircase shape, family tree shape....
I don't care.

There is nothing wrong with sales.
Sales people sell thing.
Sales people sell handphone, sell car, sell laptop.

But direct-sale is a different case,
no matter how good your product is,
it definitely doesnt worth the price.

Reason is simple,
because you have to distribute the revenue to your upper line and bottom line whatsoever.

So many people,
selling one single product.

If I buy one thing for you,
I might have to pay salary for 10sales people perhaps.

What's the point?

It is the sales people who gain the benefit,
not the customer.

The basic idea is bad.

Why I say direct-sales is unproductive?
Because the people who sales doesnt participate in the process of production.

All they know, is to sell the product.
By inviting friends for a drink in mamak or cafe.

They know nothing at all.
Trust me, even the one who sell the product, know nothing about the product at all.

But still they dare to ask you to come out when they are not equipped with sufficient product knowledge, is because there is always a mystery friend (I call them stranger) behind to talk to you.

Thats the different between direct-sales and sales.

Sales people know exactly what they are doing, they sell things for the sake of job.
Direct-sales people dont know a shit, they sell things for the sake of money.

Can you see the difference?
Sales is a job, direct-sales isnt.

Once a friend of mine has turn to work in direct-sales,
personally I think their personality has already change,
their attitude to friendship has corrupted.

Ofcourse they will never admit that they have already change,
and in fact they are fear of people saying that they had change.

That's why they always say,

'Listen first la, if dont join nvm de.'

'Dont join still can be friend mah'

'Don't get me wrong, I am not using you'

COME ON!!!!
DONT GIVE ME THIS SHIT MAN....

The one who talk about this sick ice-breaking speech,
I will definitely pour the cold water to their head man.

You yourself already realized that people perception would be like that,
you knew people will feel like that once they found that you're doing direct-sales.

That's why now you have to save your ass,
to help other people to THINK,
before they can start thinking by themselves.

In fact,
I never say that you're using me,
I never say that I wont be friend wit you,
I never say that I wont listen to your product recommendation what!!!

It is you yourself who thought that direct-sale IS A PROBLEM,
that's why you have to do yourself a self-clarification.

A friend who work for direct-sale told me,
'I am not doing direct-sale, dont worry!'

Can you see that?
They knew direct-selling is a problem but they insist that they are not doing that, they afraid of admitting that they are doing direct-sale.

Today,
newspaper stated that STG didnt apply the lisence for direct-selling and could face legal action.

Now,
go tell the court that you are not doing direct-selling la!

Come on,
it is obvious that this is a direct-selling,
dont treat me like a fool just because you are one.

First greeting they always say,
'You want to drive BM?'
(NO, NEVER TIHNK ABOUT THAT)

'Look at me, I got a new car.'
(IT'S YOUR COMPANY's CAR anyway!)

A much more rational approch would be,
'How are you lately? got a job?'

Damn,
then I answer,
'Nope, but currently I am making my short-film with my friends, very busy really.'

He answer,
'Wah, so kasihan meh? no job ah?'

I think to myself,
I am saying that I AM MAKING A SHORT-FILM with my friend,
I didnt say that I am kasihan because no job wor....

You see these fellas problem?
every sentence they use and every word that they speak to you,
have the purpose to convince you to join the membership,
even the ice-breaking session and greeting part.

I mean,
what is the point of having conversation like this?

I am doing my short-film because this is my dream,
and I AM PURSUING my dream and my ambition.

What the hell are you people doing now?
seeking fools species like one of you to join the membership?
who is more kasihan now???

Seriously,
at that moment,
these fellas makes my future direction even clearer,
atleast I know what I want.

In the end, I made my short-film,
but these fellas?

I dont even need to keep updating their so called 'business' progress and latest situation,
the news coverage and report is sufficient enough to let me know what's going on.

Ofcourse,
the ending of STG today is not the direct-sales people fault,
this I make myself very clear.

It was a Singaporean company who take over STG's managment and stop the cafe's direct-sales growth.

But if you analyze the promises these fellas made to me,
you will know they were talking bullshit to me.

The guarentee, the vision (short vision like mice), the future, the money, the business
~ALL CRAP~

There is no such thing as 'share a business' with me,
dont cheat yourself please.....

The moment you ask me out for a drink,
your intention is clear already....
ONE PURPOSE~ONE AIM....
---------------------------------drag me to join the membership !!!

Yes ofcourse you can disagree with that,
you can refuse to admit that.

But deep inside your heart you ask yourself,
do you really want to see me?

I bet you not,
that's a fact.

No way you gonna argue wit me.
The fact is,
after the conversation that day,
none of them did invite me for a drink again.

You see?
Once they said 'Dont join still can be friend mah'
but in the end, they are the one who give up the friendship, because I do not have value for them already.

They proved themselves are wrong,
I do not need to do anything to prove that I am right.

Direct-sales is not wrong,
but most of the people, especially in our country and the money-minded Chinese had make it so so wrong!!!

They thought they were clever or smarter,
know how to make fast cash,
but they lost their friendship,
whether they admit it or not,
they already did....

As for me,
ofcourse I still treat these people as my friend,

but there is no doubt that you have already leave me a bad image for forever.
Days shall pass, but still I remember there was once in a lifetime you asked me out for the sake of money.

YOU ARE USING ME.

and YOU DO NOT RESPECT OUR FRIENDSHIP.

I didnt say that actually,
it was you yourself who proved this.

After all,
you are still my friend.

husband and wife

2010-01-15T06:27:00.000-08:00

I have seen a different picture this Wednesday,
my company send me to an assignment for the IPO underwriting signing ceremony of Homeritz Corporation.

Well, IPO underwriting basically is some sort of progress before a company want to be listed in Bursa.

Before I went to the ceremony,
I did some research about the company background,
and Im really impressed.

The company was established in 1997 at Muar,
founded by a husband and wife,
doing high-end home furniture business.

With only RM30,000 of capital,
they roll-out the small business in 1997,
the year when one of the worst economy crisis we have ever faced.

Nearly 100% of their product are exported to all around the world,
and today they wish to expand their business by listing in Bursa to gain recognition.

And the thing that impressed me the most is,
they were only educated until SRP and SPM level....

I mean,
this is simply incredible!

I didnt mean that people who are not highly educated will not success in their career,
but what Im saying is....

To come this far from 1997,
and to come this near from being listed in Bursa,

is really something huge,
something big,
something sensational,
something cheerful!!!

especially when these people is not highly educated but they have the guts to be innovative,
and always try their best to give QUALITY for customer.

It's all about loyalty,
that's the spirit I can see in this husband and wife.

I cant wait to see their company being listed on next month.
Surely I wish I can see them again, shake their hands and congrats them face-to-face.

They are our proud.
They show the true character of Chinese people.

Obviously,
they are very shy infront of the press,
they are not like that kinda Dato or Datin who are good in socialize,
they have no title,
but they have the spirit.

When I read the news exclusive about them at night before,
I cant wait to meet them.

And the next day I saw them,
I was so excited,
I duno why,
I felt so happy to see them,
it's like a big pleasure....

I feel proud for them really,
I wish them all the best in the future,
and I really hope that they can perform well inside and outside of the market.

Goodluck Mr and Mrs Chua!!!

Your story and fighting experience can be the best educational material for youngster nowadays,
to inspire them and to encourage them!!!

Surely I will pray for you guys....
You both remind me of the futuristic Szetoo Weiwen and her boyfriend (???) !

My name is J.T.
Good night, and good luck.

The Quatrain of Seven Steps

2010-01-11T07:51:00.000-08:00

Is that not possible?

Everton and Liverpool,

Vampire and Werewolf,

Jews and Arabs,

Muslim and Christian,

their believe is different, nothing can shake their faith,

but is that not possible for them to live together in a same land?

Boiling the beans to create the soup,

filtering them to extract the juice.

The beanstalks were charred amidst the flames,

and of this the beans thus wailed:

"Borne are we of the same root;

should you now BURN me with such disregard?"

The Noughties

2010-01-06T09:07:00.000-08:00

"Even Everton fans....?," I asked.

"Yes even Everton fans were celebrating, everyone in the city," he said to me.

Before I completed my question,
Alan already knew what I'm trying to say.

Mr. Alan Molyneux,
the Everton fans.

JT a.k.a. Dark Shadow,
the Liverpool fans.

From Millennium 2000 to the end of 2009,
Liverpool FC brought me 10years of fantastic memories.

The fact is, Liverpool still failed to get the Premier League title,
20years of league-drought waiting....
it didnt happen.

Steven Gerrard once said he would rather give up every trophies, medals, personal achievements and club records to swap one single Premier League title.

I doubt that,
did he really mean it?

No he is not,
ofcourse he is not,
trust me.

No people in the world can do that.
Not after what Liverpool had achieve in these 10years.

Let put yourself into a Liverpool supporter's position,

Would you give up the 2001 Treble?

Would you give up "Gerrard's beauty" (quoted by commentator Andy Gray) against Olympiakos?

Would you give up Istanbul?

Would you give up "Stevie G's FA Cup Final"?

No....not a chance!!!
It is impossible to ask one Liverpool supporter to give up all these memories....
that's too much to ask....

Swap for a single Premier League title?
That's not gonna happen.

If it is,
that would be the greatest robbery of history.

It was an incredible decade to support Liverpool,
the Noughties was not a good decade in which to be a Liverpool fan,
but it was a great one.

~One Night In Istanbul~
That wasn't a once in a lifetime event,
it was a once in football history fairytale that will probably never be repeated.

My favourite lecturer Mr.Alan said to us,
when Liverpool was crowned as the King of Europe that night,
everyone in the city is crazy,
they leave everything behind and just rush out of their house!!!

They were dancing and singing on the streets,
chants and song can be heard everywhere,
they hugged with the strangers (or flagpole) and celebrate until dawn.

It was a cheerful moment.

"Even Everton fans....?," I asked.
"Yes even Everton fans were celebrating, everyone in the city," he said to me.

Before I completed my question,
Alan already knew what I'm trying to say.

Liverpool may not have been the most successful club of the decade but it has undoubtedly been the most magical.

Liverpool supporter have seen things that no one else will ever see,
and these are the things that will live with you forever.

You can ask a Manchester United fans how he felt when MU won the Champions League back in 2008,
then you ask a Liverpool fans how he felt when Gerrard lifted the trophy in Istanbul.

In their eye,
you will see the different,
how they describe their feeling,
the word,
the facial expression,
it is different.

I saw that in Alan's eye,
even he is an Everton fans.

As for me myself, I feelike I was in Istanbul that night,
it was simply incredible,
it's awesome!

Ofcourse,
Manchester United fans, Arsenal fans and Chelsea fans might claim that the Kop will never understand the feeling of lifting a Premier League title.

But for me it doesnt really matter,
I like Liverpool as the way they are,
no people can shake our faith.

Liverpool shows their character as a Comeback King of Noughties,
they never give up,
they keep on fighting,
they still walk on.

Quoted from the movie 'Transformers',

Megatron said to Optimus,
"You still fight for the weak! That's why you lose!"

It remind me of Gerrard and his fellows,
sometime it doesnt really matter if you are fighting for the weaker side,
it makes you greater actually.

p/s: Don't be like Owen!

Yes I admit, during this Noughties, Liverpool was a weaker side.
But we have found Gerrard.

Gerrard is a pure Scouse, that makes him even more lovable.
There is an unexplained and undescribed relationship between him and the club.
People just love him.

This is what Chelsea and Manchester United fans will never understand.
Because every year they got new blood and new star coming,
after Cantona they got Beckham,
after Beckham they got Ronaldo,
after Ronaldo they got Valencia (or Owen?).

You seldom heard a Manchester United fans said he miss Beckham, or he miss Cantona.
Because they have new toys every season.
They can change the favourite player they want to worship as how they wish.

But Gerrard?
No way.
Gerrard is simply a Liverpool legend, he only belong to Liverpool.

Ofcourse, no people can ensure that he will finish his football career in Anfield,
but we all knew how much he meant for Liverpool.

I think it is just fair enough to say that 'Gerrard only belong to Liverpool'.

Back to the Noughties,
Liverpool end the decade with a 1-0 away win at Villa Park,
some might claim that they were lucky,
but for me that was a compensate for what they have been gone thru this season,
that's not too much to ask seriously,
Aston Villa is just a sad victim.

Who shall be include in Liverpool Dream Team of Noughties?
Let's look at the record shall we?

Liverpool top 10 appearances during 2000s (all competitions)

Carragher - 511
Gerrard - 477
Hyypia - 441
Riise - 348
Hamann - 272
Reina - 232
Heskey - 223
Finnan - 217
Murphy - 215
Alonso - 210

Liverpool's goalscorers in the 2000s (all competitions)

Gerrard - 124
Owen - 103 (let's forget about his current employer)
Torres - 62
Heskey - 60
Kuyt - 46
Crouch - 42
Murphy - 39
Fowler - 33
Hyypia - 33
Riise - 31

Liverpool FC poll result shows the following Dream Team

Personally I think the Dream Team is cool.
But I admit, Michael Owen's contribution is better than Robbie Fowler in the Noughties,
Fowler was great back in 90s but Owen just pissed off the Kop and I am not surprise to see this happen. (in fact Owen dont even give a damn right?)

Patrick Berger and Luis Garcia indeed brought us some memorable moment,
but I think overall Dietmar Hamann and Danny Murphy are greater as they spend most of their career's golden age in Anfield.

Other than that,
this is very convincing.

Liverpool is a place of miracle,
it allows people to dream.

I love Liverpool football club,
I love the city.

The city makes me love the football club even more,
vice versa.

I am proud to be a Liverpool fans,
I am the Kop,
and I shall keep in faith,
untill the day when the title come home.

I LOVE LIVERPOOL!!!

my name is JT a.k.a. Dark Shadow,

good night, and good luck.

Top 10 headlines 2009

2009-12-28T06:33:00.000-08:00

2009 comes to an end,
these are the most stunning or sensational news that happen on me this year.

For me, this year is so happening,
it's like a roller-coaster ride.

People that know me well always say my life is interesting,
well I admit it is.

After all,
whether you like it or not,
I still want to say (the same old thing),
I thanks Lord for giving me my life, my family, my girlfriend, my friend, my job, my study, my cert, my experience....

No, no complain,
NO COMPLAIN AT ALL!!!

"Everything that happen to me is not perfect,
but I can learn someting from the incident" (JT,2009)

Don't ask me "So what?"

For me, thats the meaning of life,
to fix the problem from one to another.

And for the great things that happen to my life,
my respond is simple....

"That's a reward for myself after I have fixed my problem,
that's a bless from God" (JT,2009)

Look back to the sad things and great things that happen around you.
Then, you shall write a fantastic script for your own life.

Now, here we go:

1. Fired

Yes, it happen...
Until today, I still couldnt understand why....

I like production,
but it dissapoint me always....

There is no explanation,
I just get fired.

It gives me a huge impact seriously,
it's a painful lesson.

It hurt me badly,
it feels like shit.

But when I look back to this incident,
I have learn that 'you can only count to yourself (and God)' in the cruel reality.

NO PPL WILL GIVE YOU SYMPATHY,
they will only show you one.

And this is what I called 'fake people',
simple term to describe thiskinda jerk,

to tell you how pitty you are when he shows his bloody face infront of you,
but make jokes of you when he turn his face away.

and YOU think I dont know?

Anyhow, I will never give up!!!
I have learn how to fight back and stand up again....

This is my dream, and I dare to dream,
and I am proud to be a person who is able to dream.

One day in future,
I will be back....
to this field!!!

2. My uncle pass away

It's a really sad news, but well, I didnt feel much at the beginning, I was stunned.
I was playing computer, my mum told me after she receive the sms.

She tell me in a direct and simple sentence, calm and soft.
I keep silent for minutes, clicking the mouse infront of the computer desktop for no purpose,
I dont know what Im doing,
I just....click the mouse....

He was a great man,
and he loves football.

If he is still alive,
I will buy him a football jersey. ( I wish)
But it will never happen.

Most of the time, when a person pass away,
his friend will speak how good the person is, and how close they were.

But for me,
I am regret that I didnt talk much with him since I was a teenager.

We were close when I was small, but we didnt talk much once I grow up.
Ya, that's my fuckin attitude, I just....dont know how to communicate with family.

His death change me alot seriously,
I appreciate my family more than ever before....

I am not a good son or a good brother,
but atleast today I tried.

Lesson: LOVE YOUR FAMILY, that's a simple message, often boring for many.

now it remind me of my best friend's dad had also pass away at the beginning of this year,
it was a tough moment for him I knew,
but I see how he become mature and stronger because of this.
JIA YOU, bru!!!

3. Drama shooting

The third short-film directed by me,
but I always said,
this is our production.

I never like to tell people I am the director of this short-film,
only when people ask.

I always tell people this is the short-film 'played' by me and my friend.
Yes, we are playing, yet we are learning.

It was a fantastic experience, these are the people I enjoy working the most.
Since our college production, I have always wanted to work with these fellas,
for me they are simply the best!!!

They have passion,
they have the heart,
they have patience,
and most important~~~they have dream~~~

No matter how many difficulties we have been go thru,
we success to wrap the shooting,
which is a good thing.

I really miss the moment Derique, Weisin and me discuss script together.
It was so fun and memorable!!!
That's the time I can dream the most beyond limit.

Post-production is now temporary stop,
everyone is busy cari-makan now,
guess we gotta be patient at this moment,
as long as we keep the passion and faith I believe nothing can stop us.

4. Depart from KLIA

It's like a dream, like it had just happen yesterday, I still can feel it.

This was a great night in my life.

This is the moment my family feel proud of me.

and this is the reason why I thanks Lord and my family.

I am going to UK.

5. Failed my reading log

I failed my first paper in UK, it was so sad.

I was so dissapointed to myself.

Until today, I still canot see any reason why I failed.

This is the moment I have learn that this world is not fair.

If a copy cat can pass the paper and feel proud of himself, what makes me deserve to fail this paper?

and the worst thing is about the lecturer, he sucks, and his followers are even sucker!!!

Don't mad on me, this is my blog, I can write anything I like, and you're in the wrong place if you get offended.

Siapa makan cili dia rasa pedas (Aiyin, 2009)

I didnt say a name.

6. Memories in Liverpool

I cant believe it.

Until today I still cant believe it.

I was there, in Liverpool.

The homeground city of my favourite football club, Liverpool FC.

How many people can have this kinda experience?

I feel proud of myself for being a Kop fans (don't boo on me Munyi),

it's truly amazing experience to be there for 3months!!!!

3months....can you believe it?

I can't....

That's the feeling Manchester United fans canot understand....(don't boo on me Szetoo and weixiang), but lets imagine if you guys were studying in Manchester, how fantastic it would be right??? that's what Im talkin about.

7. EUROPE TRIP and Backpacker's dream

8 countries in Europe Trip, another 2 in backpacking trip.

What can I ask more?

Many people save money for their entire life, only for this....

but me? I am lucky enough to be there when I am still young.

Thats the thing people can really jealous on me, but still, I say 'Hallelujah' to the Lord.

Anyway, Derique and Weisin really add alot of colour in my life this year. Thanks.

8. First anniversary with Raisin

Talked about jealousity, I am proud to have Raisin.

Yes, people can jealous on me because in fact Weisin is a fantastic girl who cares about me and taking good care of me all this while.

1st anniversary meant alot for us, especially her.

27/10/09

This is gotta be one of the most memorable day for me in 2009.

Thanks dear, I love you!

9. TARCollege Graduation

Rich people always say TARC is a lousy college, I wont argue with them.

I am not proud to be a TARcian.

But for these kinda ego people, my reply is simple....

'We as the student of TARC use our full strength to get the certificate, for not letting our parents dissapointing, after they have invested all their life-savings on us.'

We feel proud of ourselves, we feel proud of our parents.

But what have you done?

I have seen alot of rich girl and rich boy still living for no direction,

rich people study in expensive college so what?

these kinda people will never understand the feeling of achieving something.

I called them 'sad people'.

Now I am graduate,

GLORY TO THE LORD,

not myself....not myself....

I am nothing without Him.

10. New Chapter

I am a business news reporter now,

still belajar sambil bekerja,

I like my job,

seriously.

CEO of an organization can make alot of money in a single minute,

but how many chances do you have to listen to his lesson for 30minutes to 1hour, free of charge?

Yes, sometime press conference is like a tuition class, he is the teacher and I am the student.

Let's imagine, I am asking him question and he shall answer me back.

How many people have this kinda learning opportunity?

I really learned alot, business news sounds boring but actualy it is not.

I start to like it.

But still, some of the company leaders are dumbhead, it's a waste of time to talk with them.

Whatsoever, it is still interesting to interview them.

Maybank CEO Wahid is the first person I interviewed, he is nice, yes he is.

Atleast my first interview question as the identity of a news reporter, wasnt reject by the interviewee.

I cant wait for the new challenge.

I'm gonna explode, I'm moving on.....

Here I come 2010!!!

No, I do not need a friend today

2009-12-23T09:07:00.000-08:00

This is probably one of the most weird blogging title I have ever put, but trust me, I really mean it.

If Valentine's Day is the day that one must reserve for his/her love partner, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are the days I should reserve for God.

Yes, I mean it....
I DO NOT NEED ANY FRIEND ON CHRISTMAS

This is not a sarcastic statement,
this is not an anger shout-out,
and this is absolutely not a pain testimonial.

What I am saying is,

Christmas is self-contained,
Christmas is self-sufficient.

(JT,2009)

Because the meaning of Christmas is even bigger than the celebration and the day itself.

FACT:
I ask my friends to join me to celebrate Christmas Eve at my church,
many of them have refuse my invitation without even care to give me a reason (or excuse),
I dont mind that.

CLARIFICATION:
I ask my friends to join me, not because I am afraid of being lonely today,
but because I wish they can feel the same happiness of celebrating Christmas like I do.

EMOTIONAL AFFECTION:
If you can attend, ofcourse I will feel happy (for you).
But if you canot attend, that seriously wont spoil my mood or shake my emotion.

As I said,
since Christmas itself is self-contained and self-sufficient,
if you can build a relationship with God in Christmas,
why do you need friend today???

Only lonely people will rushing planning for celebration, find their friends to go party and clubbing here and there.
Because they know, if they do not plan for it, they gonna celebrate Christmas alone.

But the thing is, everytime people talks about 'celebrate Christmas',
what did they mean 'celebrate'?
is there anything to cheer about?
do they really know what to celebrate?

But if you have found the true meaning of Christmas, you dont even need a single companion today.

Years before I have been hanging around with friends in Christmas Eve, not that I am not happy, but well, something incomplete is there, I couldnt describe....

There are many people accompany me, but still, I feel lonely.

But two years back on Christmas Eve I remember, I went to church by myself alone, singing Christmas song and listening to choir.
And I tell you frankly, that was the most memorable Christmas Eve I have ever celebrate.

I feel the satisfaction, I feel the meaning, I feel the joy.
Christmas allow us to feel peace and hope.

Who need a friend today?
Nobody....

From the bottom of my heart,
I wish you all Merry Christmas 2009,

Jesus Love You!!!

Children in heaven

2009-12-16T08:07:00.000-08:00

An adult in heaven might be different as an adult in the earth,

but I believe children in heaven is as same as the children in earth.

their smile, and their satisfaction, is as innocent and simple as they did in heaven or earth.

Just back from distributing Christmas present for children around Genting Klang.

I really appreciate SookTeng invitation because I can 'do something' today.

Well,it's not actually something sensational, but just something meaningful,

Yea, meaningful I say....

I cant really say this is the happiest day in my life, but atleast it was one the meaningful day in my life.

Happiest day in my life?

The day I was baptized?The day we depart from KLIA? the day we reach UK? the day I step into the holyground Anfield?the day I found that I have pass my Liverpool degree?Christmas Day?

Well, there are many I can simply mention, but meaningful things that I have done, I cant really say....

My pastor always say '人行善是本份，人行惡是本性'

It means that we as human, to do something good, something charity, is what we are suppose to do, it's our duty,it's our responsibility.

Which is why, there is NOTHING TO BE PROUD when you have done something good, because this is what you should do.

It's not something big or sensational.

I share this experience to you guys, not to tell you how kind or how good I am, but to tell you how much I thanks Lord for giving me this opportunity to help the others, if not help, atleast I share or gives happiness to the others.

Just some fruits for the adult and some cheap toys for the children. It doesnt really help them really, but when you see the smile and the joy in their face, you will know what 'happiness' really mean.

Monday's preach by Rev.Tong is a successful one, many people accept Lord Jesus as their saviour on that night.

Jesus said human live not for the food, but for the word of God.

But we as a Christian, if everyday only talk about gospel but never really do something for the society, people cant even settle down to listen gospel.

If the person is hungry and ask you for a bread, but you answer him 'You dont need food, you need Jesus'

Tell me, how would he react???

But ofcourse, back to the priority, I still think that gospel is more important than charity, because it saves our soul, not body.

We have distribute hundreds of Christmas present tonite and sing Christmas song until no voice justnow, we have seen many smile and joyful faces, deep inside their heart they appreciate us no matter who they are....

from Thailand, from Myanmar, from Indonesia, Indian, Chinese, Malays, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindis, Christians, old folks and children....everyone is happy....but who can really get the salvation in the end???

An old woman who get cancer ask us to pray for her, the moment we sing 'Holy Night' for her, I really feel touched and my tears dropped.

When you look at this kinda situation, tell me,would you even dare to feel proud of yourself for doing something good?

One should feel blessed that they can help others, instead of needing others to help them.

After all, I have learned that in fact, me myself is the one who gained the most tonight.

The Guiding Star

2009-12-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

Christmas Gospel Rally 2009
"The Guiding Star"

Date: 14/12/09 (Monday)
Time: 8pm
Venue: PGRM
Speaker: Rev. Tong

2years ago, he exposed a hidden meaning inside the story of "Saviour in the Manger"

When the Child is born,
God only inform 5 parties,

1. Gabriel, the Archangel
2. Virgin Mary
3.Joseph, Mary's husband

Gabriel knew the saviour would be born, because God want this Archangel to inform Mary earlier.
Mary need to know this news so that she can prepare herself.
And ofcourse, Joseph need to know earlier so that he wont misunderstand that Mary have sexual intercourse with other man.

The fourth and fifth one are simply amazing!!!

4. The Three Wisemen from East
5. The Shepherds

Why God inform them???
but not Jews? not Western people? not rich people???

Because salvation is for everyone, even include the poor man, and the people all around the world!!!

1year ago, he explain why Jesus is born from the body of woman.

Because Adam was neither made from man or woman.
Eve was made from a man but not a woman.
We as the son or daughter of Adam and Eve, born from the body of man and woman.

We are all sinners,
so there was this brilliant plan by God to let baby Jesus born from Virgin Mary,
He doesnt carry any original sin, and He did not commited any sin in His entire life.

I wonder what can I learn this year,
Bible is not as easy as you thought, but it is not as difficult as you can thought too.

Who cares about salvation nowadays?
who cares about Jesus?
who cares about perish and burnin in hell?

Today, a friend tell me directly,
'I dunwan go church la'

honest enough, fair enough....

Satan and the demons are winning at this moment....
and that's a fact.

What can I do and what can I say to encourage my friends to listen gospel?
I seriously dont know....

For me, its all up to God,
He will prepare the amount of people being chosen,
and when the amount is enough,
I believe armageddon will come very soon.

Few years back when I was doing my assignment with a group of classmate,
I heard how they talk and discuss about Christianity.

An ego girl speak loudly,
"Duh, what Jesus, what salvation, what perish, I dun believe in such thing la, wonder why all my friends behave like tat after they come back from UK"

She keeps talking like she knew alot, and all of my friends did respond to her and join this interesting topic.
I remain silent.....

But one year later,
Wei Sin, Wei Xiang, and Fong Way joined me at Rev.Tong Gospel Rally in 2008.

This girl,
she was not there....

If she was there, she should have watch at this 'picture' by her own eyes....
How God frame 3of them together in His miracle....

She talks alot that day on one year before, and I didnt say a word....
But sometimes, when God work by Himself, He do not even need to talk alot of crap with you....

Although none 3of them are Christian yet, but atleast they have the bless to listen to gospel....
to listen the word of God, which many people do not even have to chance to listen....

I tried to invite many people lastyear, many ppl had attend, and I am so touched to see that...
Wonder what will happen this year, I really hope all of my beloved friend will attend....

Because everyone need salvation!

Many people might avoid me at this period, but trust me, I am okay!!!
It's a pretty normal situation, because people hate preaching, I used to hate it too....

But sometimes, all we need to do is pray,

if a person has a heart to attend,
a simple invitation can make he/she move.

but if a person doesnt,
no matter how hard you try aso waste effort.

I only asked FongWay once lastyear,
two simple SMS and she say OK....

Anyway, kindly remind you guyz, all my friends, and whom who had read my blog today, I really wish to see you on next monday!!!

Lastly, May God Bless you,
Merry Christmas!!!

Handicapped

2009-12-06T08:51:00.000-08:00

First,
Tunku gave you TONGKAT.

Later,
Dr.M gave you WHEEL CHAIR.

Now,
what???

Special privilege are only given to those people who need one,
we should be proud that we don't need that.

Our road is much more narrow,
but that makes our life much more meaningful.

Our ancestors use hands and strength to start a new life here,
today we will do the same to fight for our future.

Despite how many special privilege you have and how you gonna bully us,
we will keep silent but still we keep on working.

So,
go fuck yourself la!!!

You're useless,
your life is meaningless!!!

The world is facing over-population,
but you are wasting the space of our land!!!

Joke of The Day

2009-12-01T07:33:00.000-08:00

Palestine people can rely on Malaysia's continued support to build an independent Palestinian Nation. (PM,2009)

Okay....

this is either the most heart-warming declaration for a brotherhood,
or the worst joke of all the time....

First question,
Who are you, Malaysia?

Second question,
What can you do, Malaysia?

BOLEH cakap, BOLEH bakar bendera Amerika dan Israel

what else can you do?

Don't joke la please,
you don't even have a nucklear or chemical weapon.

You can't even protect yourself,
mind your own business ok???

In fact, you do not even have the ability to cause threat for world peace,
what makes you think that you can contribute for Palestine's independent war?

Nobody knows you la, Malaysia....
Nobody is afraid of you lar, Big Horse!!!

I am not a pro-Israel, but as a Malaysian,
rather than sokong blindly like you guys,
I dun mind to be one of the pro-Israel,
atleast it makes me feel better!!!

Stop saying how cruel the Jews are,
you canot blame on one side by only measuring the casualty amount.

What do you expect?

You kill me 2 people, I kill you back 2 people???

This is a children's game!!!

Never see you show your sympathy when Israel is attacked by Hamas???

If you really believe in your God,
then you should pray for Israel,

because we all knew Abraham's God, Isaac's God,Jacob's God said,
"I will bless those who bless for Israel"

Ya, that's a true prayer....
NOT curse other political party leader and his party to die and face judgement!!!

What kinda prayer is that?
tell me!!!

The Advice by an old man

2009-11-22T09:43:00.000-08:00

The pastor gave us an advice as the identity of an old man.

Young men,

If you do everything, only for the sake of money, you will fail.

If you do everything, only for the sake of your own personal interest, you will fail.

If you do everything, only for the sake of pleasing other people, you will fail.

How true?

My name is JT, a.k.a. Dark Shadow
Good night, and good luck.

Yew WeiXin

2009-10-27T13:01:00.000-07:00

365days already, one year,
so fast, so unbelievable.

Thanks for taking good care of me,
you're a good girlfriend.

I cant imagine my days in Liverpool without you,
no hot soup and big breakfast....

Sometimes, my joke and temper are bad,
I know....

But still,
you know I really love you.

Anyway, I will try to improve myself for you,
because you deserved a better me....

Thanks for the memories,
and now I declare....

NEW CHAPTER, here we come!!!!

Sushi Zanmai....

Raisin's favourite food....

nice one

'Inglourious Bastreds' for Tarantino's fans!!!

Happy 1st Anniversary!!!
Love you....

An Awesome Friend called Tammy

2009-09-29T13:47:00.000-07:00

If Hui Hsien is the most treasured friend I found in Advanced Diploma,
Mun Yi is definitely my Godsend 'Liverpool Treasure' in these months....(and I really mean it)

There are people I would like to thanks, like family and friends,
especially Pui Yee who helped me alot in assignment,
and also Derique who add color in my LJMU and Atlantic Point's life....

Largest contribution and sacrifice???
Miss Raisin!!!
No doubt.... but now I am talking about friendship....
a friend that gives but never ask for repay....

There is a thing I told myself that I must do when I am back to Malaysia,
~to thanks Mun Yi~

this blog entry is specially dedicated to CHAN MUN YI....

I was thinking to buy a souvenier for her in Europe, and give her when I am back, attached with a thank you card.
But in the end, I didnt write the card because I seriously dont know what to write....

There are too many things I wana tell her, there are too many things I wana thanks her.
and yes I am, I am emotional right now....

Everytime I think back to those shitty days,
I feel blissed that I stil have a friend like her, and this feeling hit my emotion heavily!!!

Nobody can understand my feeling,
nobody realize how much I appreciate Munyi's help (even Munyi herself)....
~perhaps Raisin feel the same~

I remember the day I failed the bloody reading logs~for no reason~
She is the one who encourage me and support me even when she herself is angry and dissapointed for her own result.

~Everyone need someone~
But I....could never imagine....she is the someone that help me when I am down....

In fact, I never really get close to her before that, yes we chat alot, but we seldom hang out together, only with gangs or only in trips....

I feel really sorry and paiseh for giving her trouble you know, intercom to ask her stupid things like "what is the title of the assignment?" and "have you done ur work?"

Well, I need someone to talk to, and someone who talk with me....
when I am panic, when I am stress....

I just feel like I need a friend like her to cool me down, to give me confidence....
My mentality is seriously fucked up in Liverpool once I get the bad news, Raisin experienced the same....

At that moment, me and Raisin couldnt rely on each other because both of us are really moody and dissapointed to the result...
But here come Miss Tammy, to encourage both of us when we are down....

That's friend....
that's the meaning of friendship....

Sometimes, its kinda weird (or normal) to see ppl avoid spending time with a couple in relationship....
Friends tends to give more privacy to the boy and girl because they do not want to be a light bulb....

There was a time, a friend will think that it is the boy's responsibility to take care of the girl, vice versa....
I do not like this idea....seriously....

Despite how you gonna argue with me, I still believe that a true friendship is meant to be forever....

There is no such things like
~ Hey, it's ur girlfriend mah.....How I know wor?~
~Hey, now she is your gf liao mah....Why ask me wor?~

I mean, why wana talk like this to me???
We are friends, we are all friends....
Why things have to change???

Thats the reason why I like Derique and Wei Xiang because they never complain or get bored when they are spending their time with me and Raisin....
(even if they did, I hope it is not often)
3kaki? 4kaki? who cares....as long as we are friends....

Sorry, out of context....
But my point here is....

Mun Yi is really being awesome here because she take the initiative to encourage both me and Raisin even when she herself is in bad mood....

It is really hard to find a true, innocent and helpful friend like her nowadays....
especially at the age of 22....

She....is not my best friend...yet....
And I am sure Im not hers too....yet....(I wish)

But one thing for sure, these three months has just introduce me a Brand New friend,
~Miss Tammy....~

Today I can declare, she is no longer my classmate....but my friend....

Thanks alot Mun Yi,
you will never understand how much I appreciate you as a friend!!!

Raisin o raisin

2009-09-26T17:08:00.000-07:00

it's been 11 months,
nothing much I wana tel you,

but ~I love you~

Thanks for being by my side all the time...I mean....ALL THE TIME....
~no one is doing better than you did when I need someone~

Thank you Yew WeiXin, you are the best!!!
I appreciate what I have~ Brown Sauce~

Thank You Liverpool

2009-09-03T17:03:00.000-07:00

~30 May 2009~

~2 September 2009~

no city like Liverpool....

The Moment

2009-09-02T19:19:00.000-07:00

the moment I hugged Alan,

my heart was hugged by him, and I nearly cry.

谢谢你的爱

2009-08-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

我会想念你的，
以后的日子我会好好过的，Judy。

我的衣服~Judy~

虽然不是很美，但依然要谢谢它在这些日子来的陪伴。。。
如今，我要把它留在英国了。。。。

把它丢弃前，先来个告别仪式，
高挂在房间窗口，对它敬个礼，再说声‘我爱你’。

最后，

把它拿来当抹脚布！

Dream come true

2009-08-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

I watch a football friendly match of Liverpool F.C. last saturday,

I wonder....
is that considered a childhood dream come true?

Frankly, this is not my dream....
in fact, I never ever dream about it....

But that does not mean that I am not excited to be in Anfield.....

How could I dare to dream?
to step into Anfield and watch The Reds play in their own ground?

I really never think about it, and I never expect this could happen to me.

To meet Steven Gerrard?
to watch his heroic action?
to hear the Kopites sing 'Steve Gerrard Gerrard'?

I can only imagine the atmosphere in Anfield, for years....
I do not dare to dream....

But sometimes, you don't have to do anyting to reach your goal,
and you don't have suffer to gain something.....

It just come into your life and knock your door,
asking you to open up and go for it....

To watch a match in Anfield is like a fate for me,
it is my destiny....
seriously, I really think it is.

I did not pay any effort, or do anything to make my dream comes true.

This is the day!!!
8August 2009....

My breath at July'09

2009-08-01T06:12:00.000-07:00

July is a happening month for me in UK, emotion and mood are like a roller-coaster ride,
you never gonna know what happen tomorow.

The moment I feel excited like I have met Steven Gerrard,
the next moment I was drag to hell to suffer in silence,

but still the show must go on,
and I stand up once again to say Hallelujah,
because God's love never fail, and I can really feel it....here in UK.

Looking back to my photos in July, I thanks my parents for giving me opportunity to study oversea and playing around here and there.

Ofcourse, my dear shepherd Christ Jesus is always there for me, whenever I need him.
Without him, I am nothing.

I knew He loves me, and He never leave me,
no matter what I have done and what I have said.

All we need is love,
withour love there is nothing left to feel.

Most of us are stress out of assignments lately; people criticize each other and judge each other.
For me, this is something normal, something acceptable, we can't expect everyone to love us anyway.

In fact, many people has already predict this will happen sooner or later.
All we need to do now, is wait, because nothing else we can do.

When we are back to our homeland,
we shall know what we want to know.
and now,

just shut up and look at my pictures!!!

Dean Walters Building, where we have our seminars

Everyone loves Alan

he motivates

Washing my clothes~~ 3pounds

Costa Coffee

romantic

JJB--paradise of sportswear

I bought an off-season Euro kit in LFC store.

Raisin and the Reds

Opening of Everton Two

~Movie of the month~

Grasmere

Bowness Bay

Eve, my favourite tutor

Postcards time

Raisin@ Starbucks

Fish N Chips @ Lobster Pot

visit a small museum

World Museum Liverpool

St. John Garden

Castle @ North Wales

Pizza time with Munyi and Yuin Yue

my food

my drawer

class rep sleeping in the class

coffee time

presentation day, simply enjoy workin with both of them!

Tian Xia's mix rice~~ new tauke

Ah Mou visit

Kenneth joining us at West Kirby

Crosby Beach, Another Place!

hsien and iron man

3 chefts.

That's all....
Here I come, August!!!

爱

2009-07-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

没有。。。

这。。。
不是向翻版古天乐致敬的部落格。

我，只想说，

如果爱。。。没有。。。

那，

别谈什么原谅，
别谈什么友情，
更别谈什么珍不珍惜，
还是什么值不值得！

感情不能衡量啊老板！！！

如果，爱。没有

那，这个人一定很可怜，
不爱人，也没人爱。。。

爱人如己，很难。但并不是不可能。

可惜，在我的世界里，只有爱人，或爱自己。

我向来选择哪一样？

我不必多说，天知道。

因为。。。。爱。。。。能遮掩。。。。许多的罪。。。。

Old Friend visit

2009-07-27T14:42:00.000-07:00

I feel happy, I feel touched, when friend come to visit me, anywhere, anytime.

Can't describe my feeling.
It was so special you know, to meet a friend that you have known for a long time, in a foregin country.

My brother Kenneth, and a cute friend of mine Ah Mou came to visit me last few days,
feel so happy to see them.

They have been busy to spending their time to find their own friends too, I dun mind that frankly....
I am happy that I can treat them as a guest, lend them my bed, prepare breakfast and dinner for them.
I am really feel happy to do that.

Eventhou I cant hang out with both of them together on the same day, but still, I am happy that they can sacrifice one day for an old friend like me.

Glad to see you in Liverpool, UK!!!

Ah Mou and JT at Albert Dock, Liverpool.

on sunday....

Kenneth and JT at Hilbre, West Kirby.

Hope to see them again in Sheffield!!!

Coffee Grand Slam

2009-07-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

I like coffee,
triple grandslam mission is done.

Costa, Starbucks, Nero.

Drinking coffee in cafe is like a reward for myself.
Just want to appreciate what I have done, haha,
because if you did not appreciate what you have done, no one will.

Assignments deadline pressure is coming,
I can really feel it.

Coffee time is like a temporary escape from reality.
I dont know why, I really enjoy it much more than drinking alcoholic drinks,

most of the time I will think of alot of past and future when I drink alcoholic drinks,
I feel pessimistic.

Anyway, this is my Triple Grandslam coffee time's picture in Liverpool.

Costa Coffee, 3July 2009,
after submit our Representation assignment.

Americano, variatons of Espresso

Starbucks Coffee, 10July 2009,
after submit our Hollywood and Genre essay.

a postcard for a friend that I really appreciate

Mocha Frappuccino

Nero Coffee, 21July 2009,
after finish our Media Business group presentation,
with Pui Yee and Chien Yi.

Iced Americano, no close-up of the picture.
I prefer the hot Americano.

Iced Americano and THE END.

two steps from hell

2009-07-17T04:02:00.000-07:00

when I look back to my blog, seems like unhappy things happen often lately.

just two steps from hell, if I continue to make my days unhappy, Im a dead person and nobody cares.

OK, everything ends and everything burns today.

That's enough.

Today is a brand new day, won't look back in anger.

Dear Lord, please forgive me, like I forgive others.

Please teach me how to forgive others, just like how you forgive me.

我是人。

2009-07-16T12:52:00.000-07:00

Rammstein said we are living in Amerika,

I say, we are living in a forest.

新晋导演黄精甫在电影‘江湖’里把黑社会描述成一个森林，
很有意思，很深奥。

其实，那又何必呢?

我们每个人早就活在一个大树林里了。

里头凶则有老虎狮子，温驯则有松鼠兔子。
狡猾则有狐狸野狼，当然还有蛇鼠一窝。

问问自己，到底是哪个动物吧？

人被造原本就是尊贵的，但偏偏很多笨蛋却把自己归类成动物。
说什么人类的祖宗是人猿，说什么进化论，根本就是狗屁，根本就是反宗教主义者。

进化论没能被证明，人类没有证据来确实自己的祖宗是人猿，
没关系!

更糟糕的是，人类却把自己降级成动物。
更笨，更傻海！

最近遇到很多动物，有狗在烧沙爹，有蜜蜂在乱伦,有刺猬在乱插人。
很烦。

当然，我知道大家都有说话的权利，保持沉默的权利。
有伤心的权利，也有开心的权利。
人长那么大了也有资格选择自己的社会圈子。

但，我实在不开心。
因为我不服。
可是我无奈。

早在五六年前就看透了，

人都是自私的，总有邪恶的一面。

对。是这样的。
这世界本就是这样。

不想把自己说成个圣人，不想说‘众人皆醉，唯我独醒’。

我再说一大堆长篇大道你也会觉得我是‘懒有型’。
再无礼的人会说我在‘讲耶稣’。

人本来就是最聪明的，但如今却连动物都不如。
就连动物也不会互相残杀吧！

~醒啦~

you're adult, live like one. (xiang, 2009)
我喜欢这句对白，有够impact，拿来骂人一流。

但，这位Scholar未免outdate点了吧。
如果是我，
我会说，

you're human, live like one. (JT, 2009)

当然，并不是每个都酱贱把自己降级为animal。
也有些高尚的人把自己归类成first-class or second-class。

这原本是学术界里的学位资格。
用意是好的。

好学生和努力的学生本就应该获得一个更高的肯定。
没人敢说这是错的，毕竟好学生也应该得到公平的对待。

但，世界病了。

人开始对数字执著，对级别执著，
也开始忽略别人的感受。

眼里只看到那个。就只有那个。

试问，谁不想拿个first-class回家？
我都想啦。

但，有些人不能，就是不能。
没酱的能力，就是没酱的能力。
免强不来的。

说话，请注意身边人的感受吧，谢谢。
你的一句懒叫话，会打击多少人的信心，你知道吗？

有些时候，学习聆听吧。
不是每个人都想听你讲风流话的。

如果我有一张文凭，我会谢谢我的父母养育之恩，
而不是到处告诉别人我是属于高等动物，还是低等动物。

我是人。

football crap

2009-07-08T18:29:00.001-07:00

*advise*

this bullshit might not be suitable for particular group.

there is no main argument in this entry, all are craps and my opinions....

Arsenal was English FA main concern a few years ago because their squad is lack of local English player.

Since the invasion of Russian and American to English football, Premier League has become the most entertaining yet commercialized football league of the world.
But the positive thing is, this does not degrade the quality of Premier League standard.

Even thou the Big Four has been criticized for their financial situation, but they remain strong for their status in Europe.
Once again they dominate 3 seats in the semi-finals of Champions League this year.

But the Big Four has slowly turned to become an United Nations, particularly Chelsea.
As for Liverpool and Arsenal, their manager just simply loves their soil too much.

Follow the steps of Arsene Wenger to bring French players into his squad, Rafa Benitez is addicted to buy Spaniard to his team too.

How many Spanish player have Rafa brought to Anfield?
I can simply name them, Torres, Reina, Riera, Arbeloa, Alonso....
not forget to mention some failure signing like Morientes and Pelligrino,
and also our Juventus match hero Luis Garcia.

Is Liverpool an English club?
It is owned by American and managed by Spanish.

Even the coaching team and squad are form by Spanish.

Will English people feel proud for Liverpool's achievement under Rafa???
How many players Liverpool FC has contribute to the national team???

Gerrard and Carragher are the only pure Scouse in Liverpool, and ofcourse the only English player in the team.
But unfortunately Gerrard's position is clashed with Lampard and Carragher has always been left-out since Ericksson's gone.

Can you believe that?
one of the most successful club in England,
only contribute one player for the national team???

Well, I understand that they are still trying to get the first Premier League's title,
since the take over by BSkyB,

Thanks to Rupert Murdock's curse,
English football has become commercialized,
and Liverpool FC is perhaps still struggling to survive in this situation.

Money....bribe....match fixing....
there are many rumours or claims to be made....
who dare to say this is not gonna happen???

I did not mean that Manchester United and Chelsea win the trophy by their money attack,
this is ridiculous and contradicted to Liverpool's situation in Istanbul.

But one thing for sure, Alex Ferguson is very very good in using media to gain the club's power, that's why many people like Manchester United for no reason.

not gender discrimination, but sadly....
some girls are just too innocent....

You can ask a fellow who do not understand football, but he would probably heard about Manchester United, just like how I recognize New York Yankees and New Zealand All-Black.

Everyone is crazy about Manchester United, but I dun believe that....
I only believe the Manchester United fans who witness 1999 miracle against Bayern Munich, I only believe the Manchester United fans who keep their loyal support to the club when Mourinho has kick their ass.

Alex Ferguson, is the most tricky manager of the world, if you look at the newspaper, how they portray Manchester United, you will know that in media world, they tend to educate ppl that Man.United is the hero, Chelsea is the villain.

Poor man....some ppl are just too stupid to follow the trend.
Which is why, I always pay my respect to loyal Arsenal fans.

Thanks to Mourinho, Chelsea is still considered a bad football club nowadays.
From his high profile fashion and crazy statement, we can clearly see that this fella thinks that he is football model.
He wants people to know him and talk about him, but he understand Sir Alex's status is very strong in English football, which is why, he choose to become a villain instead.

Back to Benitez, this hamster look alike fella, really need to learn how to use media to gain his squad's confidence.
I like him, though he always make some strange decisions, but he is the one who inspired Liverpool's spirit, to become a Come-Back King.

Ferguson was given the title "Sir" in 1999, for making English football proud in Europe.
But when Benitez come back from Istanbul, he got nothing but only the tribute by Kopites.

Pitty....
I did not mean that he should have get himself called "Sir Benitez", but please....atleast appreciate what he has done okie???

If you compare Benitez with Ferguson fairly, Ferguson is nothing.
Seriously, I dare to say that.

How many experience Ferguson got in these years?
How many years have Rafa manage Liverpool?
His squad was a shit in 2005, Traore, Barros, Cisse, Biscan, Kewell....
these people did not contribute much to the triumph that night.

In the end, Liverpool need to rely on Gerrard to become the teams' inspiration!!!

miracle start from Olympiakos

By the time Rafa has brought Champions League back to England in 2005,
Ferguson was still being criticized by media for his poor coaching stlye in his earlier career.

OK, Rafa learned that you must please the press to please the world.
First step to do, you must gain your publicity.
Tongue war happen last season, for me it is boring, everyday is the same old shit.
But the media like it, who cares?

18 titles was an mission impossible for Manchester United last time, but Ferguson make it happen.
Main reason-- I say--it is because of his media influence.
You cannot doubt that, this could directly or indirectly affect your squad confidence, and referee decisions!!!!

I never see Benitez did that!

New season is coming, I can't wait to see what will happen.
No matter what, Liverpool will never walk alone.

Every season I will wait for the day to come, the day when Liverpool is crown as the King of England.
I will wait, with patience and loyalty, just like how Israelis wait for the Messiah.

Nevermind is Liverpool considered as a real English club or not...
Liverpool was the proud of England anyway, today we live in a Manchester United's era and no one can change that in recent years.

Glenn Johnson's arriving means Liverpool got three English players at this moment.
But that doesnt excite me really.

I dun give a damn about English national, firstly I am not an English, secondly I am not their supporter.

English players might feel proud to be recruited into English national team, but for me, I dun care how many English nationals comes from Anfield.

English nationals sucks anyway, because Steve McClaren trust his old friends in Manchester United too much.
So what???

Say bye bye to Euro Finals 2008.
Don't blame Gerrard, because it is not his fault.
It is your fault to put him into that position.

Cappello should learn from this silly mistake!

Oh yeah, by the way, can anyone please remind me who is the King of Europe in 2008?

Yes?

I beg your pardon??

Spain? did you said Spain???

Oh I see, now I remember, Spain is the champion, Torres scored the winning goal in the final.

El Nino the Kop!!!

the Spaniard

Who cares about being proud of the England football or not???
no one appreciate you anyway.

When you scold at the English national team, you are actually scolding at Manchester United, beware....

Liverpool, you will never walk alone....

silence

2009-07-06T17:48:00.000-07:00

silence

my words like silent raindrops fell, and echoed.

Halo, darkness....my old friend

I have come to talk with you again.

In restless dream I walk alone,

in the naked light I saw,

people talking without speaking and hearing without listening.

Silence like a cancer grow.

technology idiot, MU fans

2009-07-05T11:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, I am a technology idiot, I hate new technologies, because I just simply cannot adapt to it....

I got a phone, old Nokia phone, not that I dunwana buy a new phone you know, just....dun feelike changing....I hate to learn new things about technology....new device, new machine....all those shit....

Well, ofcourse I realize the importance of it....but sometime....I just lazy....
Perhaps in future I will try to use the new things, new handphone, new MP4, ya....maybe.....

Okay, Wimbledon 2009 is over, I never miss the Men's Single Final since 2004.
This is the first time I did not watch it, eventhough I am staying at UK now....

Mainly because I do not have any newspaper to read everyday....I mean....newsPAPER....the press....

I got a laptop with Internet access, but sometimes, I really dun understand, why cant I just read the news on the net???

Well, I just cant....I duno why....
Without newspaper, I am outdated, I duno wad is the latest sports news, I duno what is the latest football transfer rumours and confirmed deal.....and well....I duno what time is the Wimbledon Finals....

Anyway, I think Federer has just beat Roddick in the Final, I just check the result online, but dun have confidence to myself....I wish I didnt check wrongly for last year or 04 final result.....

You see, I really cannot trust myself for doing things online....even checking result....

Okay, two night ago I just found out Michael Owen has land to Man.United....haha....
I think many M.U. fans will be shock to hear the news....is he THE ONE to replace C.Ronaldo???
Or you got Karem Benzema????

Haha, let me be frank, Michael Owen career is almost over if he continue addicted to bet on horse racing.
He has a glass leg anyway, how many years has he took to recover his old injury???

MU fans used to laugh at him, but now...Owen is urs....so......you got any comment???

If you asked a MU fans, he will probably answer you, "Who cares? he is a free agent anyway..."

Haha, stop crying your heart out loud.... stop your lie....bloody fools....

Everyone know he is a time detonator, he could explode anytime....
It is danger to keep him in the squad, and damn, you need to pay him wages weekly.....

Now, you tell me, is Owen and United a perfect match???

haha, if he would land on Anfield again, MU fans will insult him and curse Liverpool like a freaking maniac....
But now, let's see how things go....

I know you wish Owen will score in Anfield again, haha, I would love to see that too, seriously....
you probably need a striker like him to take the revenge....

MU fans are probably the most ego fans in the world, I mean it...because they won too many trophy....

Seriously....they are the cream of the world at this moment....
Liverpool do not win any trophy in last year, but they deserved some respect, just like how I respect Manchester United!

but one thing for sure.....

M.U. fans need to learn some manners and respect to other people, same goes to Ronaldo!!!

volume 1--- Life

2009-07-03T13:18:00.000-07:00

Allright, I am not Quentin Tarantino,
Chapter 1 means Chapter 1, Chapter 2 means Chapter 2.

Chapter 1:

Infant and the shepherd

Chapter 2:

Origin of innocent

Chapter 3:

Adolescence from Gasthof zum Pommer

Chapter 4:

The Butterfly Effect

Chapter 5:

The dish best served cold

"if only ppl can be so simple n true to their hearts" (Way, 2009)

What will happen in volume 2 ???
Let's take a Bermuda Triangle's adventure.

Summarize of my Liverpool life in June

2009-06-28T05:24:00.000-07:00

It's been a month.
Here I am at Liverpool, not excited perhaps, but still very glad that I am here.
Loaded with alot of assignments and readings, very stress....but it's not boring....

This is my summary of Liverpool life this month.
Let's go back to the start.

my hostel, Atlantic Point, 121.6

my desk

my bed

first day walk

first night walk

first Sunday service, inside the van

ChinaTown-- dead city

my legendary frozen milk

first meal with yuin yue and munyi

meet up with siang yi

induction

the famous Scouse

first meal co-operate with Derique

Liverpool Cathedral

outside of cathedral

me at Chester

Chester Cathedral

The iconic statue in Cheshire Oaks

First DVD borrowed from library

first seminar drawing with Pui Yee and Chien Yi

me and Lambanana outside learning resource centre

the famous Butter Chicken presented by me--
first successful attempt after the dissapointment of Herb's Chicken

they simply love it (paiseh)

fongway birthday, ABC big family

potential couple, isyalah....

explore to Liverpool One, one year anniversary

Liverpool jerseys for toodler

Church of Our Lady and Saint Nicholas

night lepak

this is Albert Dock

This is Anfield

Bill Shankly who made people happy

me and Gerrard

the Kop

Champions League trophy 2005

drink some beer will ya

pohyi fallen asleep in movie screening

Double Indemnity-- Film Noir

Dark Shadow

sweet

friday gathering at church

some mabuk fellas' vandalism

Tesco-- one of the most important supermarket for us

another seminar drawing-- Postmodern City, inspired by Blade Runner

Coke Pork

not bad, but too salty

disco? bar? pub? club? Im not really sure

Cheeseburger with chips

I got fucked up here on last Monday and Wednesday

Hanging out with my friends after thesis consultation

me and the mini UK banana

Metropolitan Cathedral

Cheeseburger that cost 1.50 pound, very nice!!!

me at York Minster

Shambles Street- If Im not mistaken

National Railway Museum at York

That's it-- a very enjoy and wonderful honeymoon on June, shit things do happen anyway, but I am fine....

July and August situation are predictable,

because....

this is my readings--- crazy shit!!!

Keep holding on....

Kasihan Mikel Jackson

2009-06-26T04:17:00.001-07:00

Michael Jackson has died unexpectedly, everyone shock and sad.....
not sure about how Eminem, Edward Moss and Wayans Brother feel at this moment.

Well, despite the bad publicity, he is indeed a good singer and dancer.
People makes bad jokes of him and insult him when he was still alive, only the loyal fans were giving him fully support and never forget what he has done for the community and world.

The world is cruel, you love the world but the world hate you.
No matter how many charity you have done, one silly mistake will spoil your career, because people will always remember a tiny black dot in a white paper.

Blame the media, blame the world, blame the God, well....
We all got to admit, the world is not fair.

Some people are lucky enough to strike back, but not Michael Jackson.
The negative media portrayal are too much for him, too much....
If he were Leslie Cheung, he would have commit suicide.
But he did not.

Think about how much pressure he feel all this while, but he still want to hold the last gasp and make the last world tour concert.
Too bad, one of the most historic concert by Michael Jackson never happen.
No birthday celebration on 29 August, instead, he left his fans dissapointment and sadness....

Nah, now entertainment news will tell Michael Jackson's story, saying how great he was, how nice he is....
Fuck the press....fuck the paparazzi.....fuck the dogs.....

I am not Michael Jackson fans, I dont give a damn what is the reason he want to covert into Islam.
All I know is, no one can beat his dance, and he got the largest fan-base since Elvis and John Lennon....

R.I.P Mikel

pulp reading logs

2009-06-22T07:47:00.000-07:00

Few hours ago, I stated that I have never been so hardworking before.

Ironically, hours later, shit things happen.

Well, try your best and put your effort is often not enough to achive something.

That's all.

Helldays are coming....

Okay, I got fucked up this time.

Life is busy....

2009-06-21T23:53:00.000-07:00

after few weeks of honeymoon in Liverpool, it is time for freedom fighting~~bloody assignments~~

Life started to get busy, no time to study all those articles and books, frankly, I have never been so hardworking since secondary school.

This is the first time I really utilize a learning resource centre, borrow DVDs and books, search and request for extra further readings.

Nothing much to share actually, two pictures will tell you nearly everything.

Sunday lunch, sandwiches and Ginger beer.

In the end, I dun even got the time to drink the beer, just two sandwiches will make my day colorful, haha.

Gtg to class now, 8am!!!
Ciaoz....

Manchester Airport incident

2009-05-31T22:20:00.000-07:00

When we reach Manchester Airport, there are two queue in imigration centre, one for UK residents, another for foreigners.
The queue for the UK residents is longer than foreigner, but the thing is, it moves faster than foreigners did.

Imigration officers always gives priority to their own citizens first, and we all as foreigners got to wait.
Why did they do things in that way???
There are two reasons I guess.

First, they need to be careful before they give permission to foreigners to enter their country.
They need to check our passport, our financial status, period of staying, everything.
But they do not need to do this to UK residents, so why don't they allow the UK residents to pass thru the border first?
Pre-caution to terrorism and H1N1, it is reasonable.

Secondly, because you should give priority to your own citizens, that's simple!!!
They are your people, who share the same nationality with you, ofcourse you should do that.
This is very reasonable too.

Frankly, I don't see anything wrong to their policy.

My unsatisfaction?
I wish they can open up more imigration counters so that we don't need to wait so long....
1 hours man....very tiring!!!

If you look back to Malaysia's policy, you will cry.
Sadly, Malaysia government always give priority to foreigners.

When the officers see a foreigner, is like seeing a malaikat, and their eyes will shine like a superstar.

Damn it!!!

Even in the restaurant, the waiter and waitress will give priority to the foreigners because they always think that the foreigners have more money.

That's Malaysian!
so sick.....

If you do not respect your own people in your own country, who are going to respect you???
Too bad....

Learn from other people la, Malaysia!!!
Wake up la, Malaysia....

I love my country, but I hate their bloody policy.
It was not made to protect their own people.

It was made to protect a certain race, which is a race that need to be protected, a weaker race.

They think they are first-class people? call themselves the "prince of earth"?

Who say racism never happen???
Fools!!!

We are not protected!!!
No people gonna respect us.

"Fucking Asians" they call us.
Thanks to your STRATEGIC policy, Malaysia!!!

KL-Abu Dhabi-Manchester-Liverpool

2009-05-30T23:24:00.000-07:00

Liverpool is not just another place, it means something to anyone of us.

Football passion....Degree level....Oversea's dream comes true.....

It is always excited to reach a brand new place, yet feel scared for not adapting their culture...yet.

Now I reach UK already, didnt feel much also frankly.
Liverpool is a very quiet and peaceful place, in another word----boring.....

People sleep early and wake up early, all shops close at 5PM sharp, very discipline....
No mamak, no lepak, no "street racing" and Mat Rempit (which are the best thing)

The street looks sorrow yet beautiful.
The air is fresh and cold.
The sun shine bright but not freaking hot.
You can see the moon and twinkle little star because not much of tall and big trees in Liverpool.

Here is some picture from KLIA, Abu Dhabi Airport, Manchester Airport, and Liverpool....

Departure

Counter A

my family

inside the plane

Etihad---Middle East Airline

raisin and me

my old friend

our meal

Abu Dhabi International Airport

Manchester.

This is the moment--- we land at UK!!!

Imigration at Manchester Airport, it sucks....

Welcome to Liverpool !!!

Thats all for the first day.....
quite busy for buying food and stuff these few days, not yet settle down myself....
I'll keep in touch with you guys and update myself again a.s.a.p

Godbless,
Happy Sunday!!!

you'll never walk alone

2009-05-26T21:26:00.000-07:00

Liverpool, here I come!!!

About 10 years ago when I was still a boy,
I already like Liverpool FC so much and had become their loyal fans.

I never imagine I can go to Liverpool ten years later,
tomorow is the day....
this is the day!!!

28th May 2009!!!

Few days later, we shall meet our lecturer again....

Dr. Iqbal Akthar!!!

Oopss......wrong picture....
This is an Iqbal's look alike, Brazilian footballer--- Emerson!!!

Now, this is the real Dr.Iqbal
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*****

Dr. Iqbal Akthar!!!
(more handsome I guess)

*****
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Allright, back to Liverpool FC....

08/09 season is Liverpool's best premier league performance ever in recent years.

--86 points, runner up--

77 Goals Scored,
Goal Difference 50+,
only beaten twice,

this is a figure Man.United did not reach....

Eventhough Benitez' men did not lift the trophy this year, but they definitely can raise their head up when they leave the pitch!!!

Shankly Gates, I can't wait to visit Anfield!!!

"You'll Never Walk Alone" is Liverpool FC's anthem since early 1960s.
There are alot of versions recorded by many famous singers, include Frank Sinatra, Johnny Cash, Elvis Presley, and The Three Tenors.

Gerry & The Pacemakers' version is my favourite....

But we all cannot denied that, Liverpool fans "Kopites" can sing better than all of them!!!
The massed chorus of Kop supporter is the best!!!

Kop sing YNWA after victory against Chelsea in Champions League 2005 is one of the best massed chorus ever!!!

Today on, every breath I take when I reach Liverpool, YNWA will be played in my heart!!!
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When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
******************

I'll never walk alone, we'll never walk alone!!!

Godspeed!!!

是谁？

2009-05-23T11:16:00.000-07:00

如果我们三个人里面只有一个人会成功，我希望那个人是你。。。。

如果我们三个人里面只有两个人会成功，我希望那两个人是你们。。。。

说真的，我。。。。并不介意做个小人物。。。。

只希望你们比我更出色！

黑影子。。。。又怎么样？

Stevie G honours

2009-05-13T09:55:00.000-07:00

Steven Gerrard, the Liverpool captain,
was today named FWA Footballer of the Year....

here are some photographic tribute by liverpoolfc.tv to Stevie G's incredible season.

Player of the Century:
Stevie G reaches 100 Liverpool goals versus PSV.

The Real deal:
Stevie's back for the home leg as Madrid are beaten 4-0

His best week at the club?
Next the captain scores in a 4-1 victory at Old Trafford against Manchester Unite before kissing the TV cameras.

What a trio:
Stevie is congratulated to his first Premier League hat-trick versus Aston Villa

We all know, Liverpool are a different team without him.
For the past few years, Liverpool rivals claimed that The Reds cannot compete with other big teams without Stevie G.

Rafa Benitez's signed of Alonso, Mascherano, Kuyt and Torres indeed release Gerrard's burden.
And today, Liverpool can still keep winning without Gerrard.

In this season, Gerrard and Torres only paired up together in 12 matches so far, due to their back to back injury.
We all know how scary Liverpool heroic duo can be.
Their absence makes Liverpool's attack lack of creative and energetic organization.

Liverpool is still doing good this season without rely too much of Gerrard, but the both 4-4 final score against Chelsea and Arsenal proved the importance of Gerrard to control the midfield defense.

Stevie G come back at the match against Newcastle and WestHam, obviously, we can see a very different Liverpool, more confidence and more solid.

scored twice against Hammers after back from injury

Back to the FWA Footballer of the Year Award, as a Liverpool fans, I think Gerrard deserved that, 23 goals in a single season (15 goals in EPL), this is a remarkable figures for a midfielder.

Last month, Ryan Giggs from Manchester United has been awarded PFA Player of the Year.
I am really surprise that Gerrard was pipped to Giggs, no offense to MU fans.
But I don't think anyone deserved this award better than Gerrard, except Ronaldo and Torres perhaps.

Now, don't get me wrong, Giggs is probably one of the best left winger of the world since 1999 Champions League.
He is good at dribbling, passing and crossing.
He is an expert of corner kick and free kick.

Beside, he is a nice guy, a nice team leader.
Ofcourse he deserved this award, but not this year.

It is so funny because after so many great years he have at MU, but he win the award in a year when he is not even a first choice player or key player for MU this season.
There were only 12 starting line up (until the day he receive the award) at this season for Giggs, scored 2 goals.

Something wrong with the panel huh???

Lets make a small comparison for their performance in Premier League so far.

Starting line up:
Giggs, (14)
Gerrard, (28)

Goal:
Giggs, (2)
Gerrard, (15)

On Target:
Giggs, (10)
Gerrard, (40)

Do I need to say more???

Even Chelsea's manager Guus Hiddink and Milan's Carlos Ancelotti agree that Stevie G is the best player of the world at 2009 and think the PFA award should be given to him.

Steven Gerrard, truly the living legend.

tears of child

2009-05-10T04:05:00.000-07:00

when we talk about the relationship between a mother and a son (or daughter),
surely we remember the tears of joy and tears of dissapointment.

Mother can cry for her son, when he get a bronze trophy in the primary school story-telling competition.
This is what we called tears of joy.

Mother can cry for her son, when she found he skip classes for playing computer games at cyber cafe.
This is what we called tears of dissapointment.

This kind of tears is something very normal, almost every mother experienced that.
I believe we as a child, we saw our mother cried for us before.

What about us?
we cried too, for foods, for toys, for shit.

There are two other kind of cries, and they can only be heard by one side.

First kind,
it can only be heard by your mum, but not yourself.

Guess what?
you cried when you were born.

You can never heard your own cried, but your mum can, and she did.
Think about how she felt, think about how much she loves you, think about how much she is willing to give you after she give birth to you and she heard your cried.

Second kind,
it can only be heard by yourself, but not your mum.

Guess what?
you cried when your mother pass away.

In this case, your mother can never heard your cried.

These two kind of tears,
show us the biggest contrast of feeling between our mum and ourselves.

One is heart-warming, another is heartbreaking.

Today is Mother's Day, I thanks my mum for everything.
and I thanks God too for giving me the best mum of the world.

Come on, let's wish our mother Happy Mother's Day!
I love you, Ma!!!

after 7 years

2009-05-06T01:04:00.000-07:00

I can't really recall the last time I went to a family trip.
Melaka or Penang? I can't remember.....back to 7 years before I guess.

Last Thursday I went to Genting with family and cousins family, stay for just one night, celebrating my mum's birthday and my uncle's birthday.

It's a memorable night and day.
There were fireworks shown from 11.45PM until 12AM, as the next day is Labour Day.
We watched it from the view of hotel, the heights is nearly perfect!!!

~here are some pictures taken by me~

everyone enjoy the show!!!

this small fellow tried to capture the breathtaking moment by pencil and paper.

Oh ya, not forget to mention, we stayed in Maxims Hotel, which is the most expensive hotel in Genting Highland.
Please don't ask me about the rates, I am not pretty sure.
But if I'm not mistaken, it is a Signature Suite.

If you asked me, I think the room and service of Maxims Hotel is even better than the 6stars Palace of the Golden Horses.
The environment is nice and comfortable, it is flexibly enough to make you feel like a home or keep you awake in a working mood.

So....let's start from the....
Toilet!!!

this is something very common nowadays, toilet bowl with the washer that can clean up your ass after you finish bombing Tokyo.

nice one.

bath tub and TV.

big mirror that allows you to watch yourself fully naked. (if you want)

TV speaker volume master and telephone.

As I said earlier, the room can be a nice working space too.

computer and internet connection are available.

Printing, unlimited ink and paper refills and free of charge.

Beside, you can grab some snacks or fruits whenever you want.
Chocolate bars, candies, fresh apples and pears.
But I heard lastime they provided more varies of choice.

*refreshments are not free of charge* (too bad!!!)

some other nice facilities provided....

plasma TV

DVD player with USB port

housewife needs.

mahjong set and mahjong table, but unfortunately....

*cash is not provided*

Basically that's all in the room.
So, here are some pictures to remind myself what have I done in this trip.

my uncle's birthday cake

love pearl for my mum

*sorry, you can't find any pearl in this picture*

two in one family!

supper at Pizza Factory, I prefer their 油炸鬼

cameo in Customer Service

pujuk my cousin tidor

gym and breakfast

and we saw 3 Lamborghini

lunch at VietNam House

the food and service are nice

I ordered Ice Coffee with Milk, this is what I got.

I stare at the cup of ice and the coffee bean, don't know what to do....

In the end, have to ask the waitress to help me.
*paiseh*

this is my lunch, beef salad and ice-coffee, perfect combo!!!

take my cousin for a car ride.

I miss old days.

satisfaction.

children can always reach happiness easily.

we all sayang him so much!!!

here we go!

hot jakuzzi

chasing around

fantastic posing

saw his dream car?

elephant ride

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inside the lift
p/s: this is a natural pose....

kids are sooooooo cuteeeeee....

Around 7PM, we were ready to go home!

skyway station crowded by people, waited for almost an hour!

firstime ever I take cable car at night, not bad la, but too many haze, no scenery to watch.

This is it, a memorable trip.
~30th April and 1st of May~

哲学家和诗人的故事

2009-04-28T16:08:00.000-07:00

嘉腾讲古仔时段
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话说曾经有两个好朋友，

一位是个哲学家，
另一位是个诗人。

该名哲学家脑子里满有伟大的思想，足以影响世人们的道德伦理观念。

国王非常欣赏他，就叫仆人送了他一把用黄金制作的龙椅，表示对他的喜爱和纪念他对国家所做出的贡献。

另一边厢，那位诗人则拥有令世人羡慕的聪明才华，能写出优美感人的诗歌。

但他非常低调，虽然世人都喜欢念他的诗，却没有人认识他。

有一天，这名诗人听闻他的好友（哲学家）会在家里摆设宴席，
邀请了许许多多的亲朋好友。。。政治家。。。军官大使。。。
大家一同庆祝国王送他龙椅的大喜事。

诗人决定前赴这场宴会。
虽然那时侯大雨倾盆，但他仍要赶上路途与老朋友见面。

宴会里每个人身光颈亮，正陶醉在跳舞作乐时，

突然!!!那诗人出现了。
头发凌乱像囚犯，衣服破烂像乞丐，满身脏脏臭臭。
由于外头正下着大雨，他在赶路时鞋子已经沾上了许多污泥。

众人看到他进来后，全场鸦雀无声。。。
但，那诗人却胆敢地，大摇大摆地走到台前。。。

在众目光下，他跳上了龙椅，
用双脚把污泥狠狠地踩在龙椅上！

诗人大声喊道，

“我亲爱的好朋友啊，你在哪里？

快出来跟我见面！我要拯救你啊！

你已经被荣华富贵给弄瞎了，导致你沉醉在世人的虚浮之声里。

我今天就要用双脚把你的傲慢给践踏，再践踏，
把它给踩扁，把它给踩散！

好让你不再沉睡，好让你不再迷失！”

诗人边踩边喊，盼望他的昔日知己可以露面。

哲学家在台下看到这一幕后，认出了这位旧朋友。
他赶紧冲上台前，拥抱了那位诗人。。。
满眼热泪地感激那位诗人为他所做的一切！

哲学家大声叫道，

“我久违的老朋友啊，我感谢你今天把我从这个荣华富贵的无底坑里给拯救出来。

如果不是你，我依然沉醉在世人的宴乐当中！”

说着说着，哲学家手里拿起了一块白布，
用力地把龙椅给擦干净。

他边抹边说道，

“今天，我要用白布把你的妒忌给全部擦去，再擦去，
把它给抹走，把它给抹掉!

好让你的心不再诡诈，好让你的心更加清洁!

我要拯救你啊！”

一生何求唉

2009-04-25T23:19:00.000-07:00

生。。。无人能选

老。。。无人能逃

病。。。无人能免

死。。。无人能胜

当婴孩诞生时，每个都是紧紧地握住拳头，势要以双手打拼世界。
但每个人死去时，都只能无能为力地把双手摊开，什么也带不走。

人活在热光之下短短几十年，再多成就再多江山也都转眼成空。
亚历山大帝占领了多少领土，死的时候也不过是被葬在棺材里。

人生到底求什么？

人为什么要来？为什么又要去？

既然要去？又何必来？

一个人死后往何处去？
如果不知道，恐怕只能潇洒地唱一句。。。

“不要问我从哪里来。。。”

Commemorate the Sacrifice of God

2009-04-10T19:26:00.000-07:00

Jesus had finished praying for himself, his disciples, and for all believers. He then went into an olive grove.

Judas came to the grove, guiding a detachment of soldiers and some officials from the chief priests and Pharisees. They were carrying torches, lanterns and weapons.

After Jesus was questioned by Annas, Caiaphas and Herod, they then brought Him to Pontius Pilate.

"It was your people and your chief priests who handed you over to me. What is it you have done?"

"My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jews. But now my kingdom is from another place."

"You are a king, then!" said Pilate.

Jesus answered,"You are right in saying I am a king. In fact, for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me."

"What is truth?" Pilate asked.

Pilate went out to the Jews and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him."

Do you want me to release 'the king of the Jews'?"
They shouted back, "No, not him! Give us Barabbas!"

"Hail, king of the Jews!" said the Roman soldiers.

Chief priests and their officials shouted, "Crucify! Crucify!"

"Here is your king," Pilate said to the Jews.

But they shouted, "Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!"

"Shall I crucify your king?" Pilate asked.

"We have no king but Caesar," the chief priests answered.

Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified.

So the soldiers took charge of Jesus. Carrying his own cross, he went out to Calvary.

Here they crucified him,

and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle.

Jesus said, "It is finished."

With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.

He was crushed for our inquities,
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his stripes we are healed.

Jesus Love You....

四个小和尚

2009-04-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

有四个和尚路径一间破烂的庙宇，看见那里非常宁静，
于是，大师兄便叫师弟们一起在那庙里打坐悟道。

大家放下背包行李，四人围成一个圆圈，准备闭上双眼的时候，
发现天色暗了。。。
大师兄便叫小师弟去拿点灯油来照明。

小师弟把灯油拿来后，放在四人中央，
四个和尚便关上眼睛，心里念起经来。

忽然，一震轻风把灯油的火给灭了。

小师弟小声说道，“糟糕！灯火灭了！怎么办？”

（其实，如果他正在专心打坐，理应不会发现灯火灭了）

三师兄听到后，立刻骂道，“你打坐怎么可以分心呢？”

二师兄听到后，又向二人骂道，“你们俩怎么可以在打坐时分心呢？”

这时，大师兄仍然闭上嘴巴，眼睛稍微睁开，向四周偷瞄了一下。。。
心里想道，“阿弥陀佛，幸好我没有分心。。。”

这故事没有牵涉宗教成份，但却暴露了我们在日常生活当中常常犯下的错误。

我们看到一些我们认为不过眼的事情，总是忍不住想要发表意见。

我们听见别人在论断某某人时，总是想加上一把嘴凑热闹。

我本人就有过酱的经历。

听见一班朋友们在说谁谁谁的坏话时，心里不断提醒自己，
我应该小心自己的言语，不要加盐加醋!

沉寂了一段时间，口痒了，不知不觉便开口说起话来。
但我却没有发现，我口里所说的，跟他们并没有什么分别。

一心想要混入他们的话题，但最后我所讲的同样是像他们那恶毒难听的话。

直到话说完了以后，才恍然大悟！
“原来我也不过如此。。。。”

那些曾经被我在背后插一刀的朋友:

在此我要向你们说一声抱歉!!!

但我知道，在我不在你们当中的时候，
我也很可能会被你们往我背后暗刺一刀。

人。。。就是这样。。。。
朋友有时也会这样。。。。

I'm with You

2009-03-29T10:31:00.000-07:00

chatting with paiwah online, listening to Avril Lavigne's "I'm with You",
it makes me think about you....
yes, we talked about you,
my dear friend....

A friend of mine once told me, "you can have alot of good friends in your life, but never choose one to become your best friend"

But frankly, you are my best friend in my life....
because I know you are not going to betray me....never....ever....
A friend that understand me, a friend that can share interest with me....
It's been a while I didnt hear anything from you, I'm worry.

I knew you more than 10years,
we play together and talk dirty jokes together,
we get drunk together and chat at balcony for hours.

How are you doing?
We all miss you so much....
Everday I pray for you,
may God gives you strength and courage to walk through these fires and storms!!!

today is probably the first time that I'm gonna tell you,
I miss you....
this blog is specially dedicated to you,

August 2006....

Next, I must mention another good friend in this post.
Her name is Pui Yee, today is her 22nd birthday!!!

Hope she can find her sweetheart soon lar!!!
I always wish to see her paktor, because I know she is a good girl,
and I know she will be a good gf....

It's been longtime I didnt hang out with her already lor,
miss those moment we study together, shoot drama together and edit video together,
she is really a tough girl....with strong will and passion!

Well, she is my classrep in UK, so....
I'm gonna treat her very very very nice these few months, haha....

i really sayang kawan ni....
Happy Birthday 2009!!!!

Anyway, enough for today lar,
if I continue to describe my emo feeling again,
it will definitely spoil my cool image!!!

My name is JT aka Dark Shadow,
good night....good luck....

my name is JT aka Dark Shadow

2009-03-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

first entry in my new blog....
allow me to introduce myself....

my name is jiateng.....
nothing much to tell also lar....

Lastime I use Friendster for blogging, then switch to MSN space....
But, friendster sucks lar wei...my blog kena hack gaogao....
MSN not bad lar, but no people will visit wan....haha....

I guess most of my friends know I like movies, and I like Liverpool FC.....bla bla.....
and yes, I blog about movies....blow water only la....all are crap and bullshit....personal opinion....

visit it if you got interest
http://www.jiatengmovie.blogspot.com/

So, in this new blog (the one you are reading right now), I will talk more about my life lar, what I like lar, and what I think lar...it depends on my mood lor....haha....

I can chat any topic with you, the thing is....
will I bored you???

I like this picture, this is the real me....
All my friends know it.

These few weeks on I will do my E-learning online....
Have to read alot of articles, online journals, e-books, participate in forum and comment to other people's post la.....
Then got reading logs to complete somemore, and ya, need to plan for my thesis....
I have to do all these shits before I go UK to further my study!!!

I don't know what is going on to the E-learning system.
The webpage load so damn slow, and it makes us so frustrating!!!

But Mr.Iqbal ask us not to complain,
so I guess we all got to be patient....

Frankly, loaded with this much of heavy works really makes me feel so tired, and I really don't have the mood to study overseas at this moment.
I mean, it should be a happy and fun experience.

Come on, I am going to Liverpool....
perhaps not the most beautiful city in England, but this is the city where my favourite football club belong!!!
I am looking forward to go there....

But when I see the crazy assignments deadline and schedule, I feelike crying, only without tears, haha!!!
Anyway, Liverpool's recent fantastic performance seems like a good sign to welcome me!!!

Heroic duo *Gerrard and Torres*

Double killed Real Madrid and Manchester United in this season is enough to cheer me up at this moment.
Perhaps Liverpool has a long way yet to go for lifting Champions League trophy again, and MU is still in the advantage position to win the Premier League title....
But anyway, Liverpool's recent performance had already makes me keep holding on to my LJMU study!!!

That's all for this very first entry, chat again nextime!!!