Wednesday, December 23, 2009

No, I do not need a friend today

This is probably one of the most weird blogging title I have ever put, but trust me, I really mean it.

If Valentine's Day is the day that one must reserve for his/her love partner, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are the days I should reserve for God.

Yes, I mean it....
I DO NOT NEED ANY FRIEND ON CHRISTMAS

This is not a sarcastic statement,
this is not an anger shout-out,
and this is absolutely not a pain testimonial.

What I am saying is,

Christmas is self-contained,
Christmas is self-sufficient.

(JT,2009)

Because the meaning of Christmas is even bigger than the celebration and the day itself.

FACT:
I ask my friends to join me to celebrate Christmas Eve at my church,
many of them have refuse my invitation without even care to give me a reason (or excuse),
I dont mind that.

CLARIFICATION:
I ask my friends to join me, not because I am afraid of being lonely today,
but because I wish they can feel the same happiness of celebrating Christmas like I do.

EMOTIONAL AFFECTION:
If you can attend, ofcourse I will feel happy (for you).
But if you canot attend, that seriously wont spoil my mood or shake my emotion.

As I said,
since Christmas itself is self-contained and self-sufficient,
if you can build a relationship with God in Christmas,
why do you need friend today???

Only lonely people will rushing planning for celebration, find their friends to go party and clubbing here and there.
Because they know, if they do not plan for it, they gonna celebrate Christmas alone.

But the thing is, everytime people talks about 'celebrate Christmas',
what did they mean 'celebrate'?
is there anything to cheer about?
do they really know what to celebrate?

But if you have found the true meaning of Christmas, you dont even need a single companion today.

Years before I have been hanging around with friends in Christmas Eve, not that I am not happy, but well, something incomplete is there, I couldnt describe....

There are many people accompany me, but still, I feel lonely.

But two years back on Christmas Eve I remember, I went to church by myself alone, singing Christmas song and listening to choir.
And I tell you frankly, that was the most memorable Christmas Eve I have ever celebrate.

I feel the satisfaction, I feel the meaning, I feel the joy.
Christmas allow us to feel peace and hope.

Who need a friend today?
Nobody....

From the bottom of my heart,
I wish you all Merry Christmas 2009,

Jesus Love You!!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Children in heaven

An adult in heaven might be different as an adult in the earth,

but I believe children in heaven is as same as the children in earth.

their smile, and their satisfaction, is as innocent and simple as they did in heaven or earth.



Just back from distributing Christmas present for children around Genting Klang.

I really appreciate SookTeng invitation because I can 'do something' today.



Well,it's not actually something sensational, but just something meaningful,

Yea, meaningful I say....

I cant really say this is the happiest day in my life, but atleast it was one the meaningful day in my life.

Happiest day in my life?

The day I was baptized?The day we depart from KLIA? the day we reach UK? the day I step into the holyground Anfield?the day I found that I have pass my Liverpool degree?Christmas Day?

Well, there are many I can simply mention, but meaningful things that I have done, I cant really say....

My pastor always say '人行善是本份,人行惡是本性'

It means that we as human, to do something good, something charity, is what we are suppose to do, it's our duty,it's our responsibility.

Which is why, there is NOTHING TO BE PROUD when you have done something good, because this is what you should do.

It's not something big or sensational.

I share this experience to you guys, not to tell you how kind or how good I am, but to tell you how much I thanks Lord for giving me this opportunity to help the others, if not help, atleast I share or gives happiness to the others.

Just some fruits for the adult and some cheap toys for the children. It doesnt really help them really, but when you see the smile and the joy in their face, you will know what 'happiness' really mean.

Monday's preach by Rev.Tong is a successful one, many people accept Lord Jesus as their saviour on that night.

Jesus said human live not for the food, but for the word of God.

But we as a Christian, if everyday only talk about gospel but never really do something for the society, people cant even settle down to listen gospel.

If the person is hungry and ask you for a bread, but you answer him 'You dont need food, you need Jesus'

Tell me, how would he react???

But ofcourse, back to the priority, I still think that gospel is more important than charity, because it saves our soul, not body.

We have distribute hundreds of Christmas present tonite and sing Christmas song until no voice justnow, we have seen many smile and joyful faces, deep inside their heart they appreciate us no matter who they are....

from Thailand, from Myanmar, from Indonesia, Indian, Chinese, Malays, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindis, Christians, old folks and children....everyone is happy....but who can really get the salvation in the end???

An old woman who get cancer ask us to pray for her, the moment we sing 'Holy Night' for her, I really feel touched and my tears dropped.

When you look at this kinda situation, tell me,would you even dare to feel proud of yourself for doing something good?

One should feel blessed that they can help others, instead of needing others to help them.

After all, I have learned that in fact, me myself is the one who gained the most tonight.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

The Guiding Star

Christmas Gospel Rally 2009
"The Guiding Star"

Date: 14/12/09 (Monday)
Time: 8pm
Venue: PGRM
Speaker: Rev. Tong



2years ago, he exposed a hidden meaning inside the story of "Saviour in the Manger"

When the Child is born,
God only inform 5 parties,

1. Gabriel, the Archangel
2. Virgin Mary
3.Joseph, Mary's husband

Gabriel knew the saviour would be born, because God want this Archangel to inform Mary earlier.
Mary need to know this news so that she can prepare herself.
And ofcourse, Joseph need to know earlier so that he wont misunderstand that Mary have sexual intercourse with other man.

The fourth and fifth one are simply amazing!!!

4. The Three Wisemen from East
5. The Shepherds

Why God inform them???
but not Jews? not Western people? not rich people???

Because salvation is for everyone, even include the poor man, and the people all around the world!!!



1year ago, he explain why Jesus is born from the body of woman.

Because Adam was neither made from man or woman.
Eve was made from a man but not a woman.
We as the son or daughter of Adam and Eve, born from the body of man and woman.

We are all sinners,
so there was this brilliant plan by God to let baby Jesus born from Virgin Mary,
He doesnt carry any original sin, and He did not commited any sin in His entire life.




I wonder what can I learn this year,
Bible is not as easy as you thought, but it is not as difficult as you can thought too.

Who cares about salvation nowadays?
who cares about Jesus?
who cares about perish and burnin in hell?

Today, a friend tell me directly,
'I dunwan go church la'

honest enough, fair enough....

Satan and the demons are winning at this moment....
and that's a fact.

What can I do and what can I say to encourage my friends to listen gospel?
I seriously dont know....

For me, its all up to God,
He will prepare the amount of people being chosen,
and when the amount is enough,
I believe armageddon will come very soon.

Few years back when I was doing my assignment with a group of classmate,
I heard how they talk and discuss about Christianity.

An ego girl speak loudly,
"Duh, what Jesus, what salvation, what perish, I dun believe in such thing la, wonder why all my friends behave like tat after they come back from UK"

She keeps talking like she knew alot, and all of my friends did respond to her and join this interesting topic.
I remain silent.....

But one year later,
Wei Sin, Wei Xiang, and Fong Way joined me at Rev.Tong Gospel Rally in 2008.

This girl,
she was not there....

If she was there, she should have watch at this 'picture' by her own eyes....
How God frame 3of them together in His miracle....

She talks alot that day on one year before, and I didnt say a word....
But sometimes, when God work by Himself, He do not even need to talk alot of crap with you....

Although none 3of them are Christian yet, but atleast they have the bless to listen to gospel....
to listen the word of God, which many people do not even have to chance to listen....

I tried to invite many people lastyear, many ppl had attend, and I am so touched to see that...
Wonder what will happen this year, I really hope all of my beloved friend will attend....

Because everyone need salvation!

Many people might avoid me at this period, but trust me, I am okay!!!
It's a pretty normal situation, because people hate preaching, I used to hate it too....

But sometimes, all we need to do is pray,

if a person has a heart to attend,
a simple invitation can make he/she move.

but if a person doesnt,
no matter how hard you try aso waste effort.

I only asked FongWay once lastyear,
two simple SMS and she say OK....

Anyway, kindly remind you guyz, all my friends, and whom who had read my blog today, I really wish to see you on next monday!!!

Lastly, May God Bless you,
Merry Christmas!!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Handicapped

First,
Tunku gave you TONGKAT.

Later,
Dr.M gave you WHEEL CHAIR.

Now,
what???






Special privilege are only given to those people who need one,
we should be proud that we don't need that.

Our road is much more narrow,
but that makes our life much more meaningful.

Our ancestors use hands and strength to start a new life here,
today we will do the same to fight for our future.

Despite how many special privilege you have and how you gonna bully us,
we will keep silent but still we keep on working.

So,
go fuck yourself la!!!

You're useless,
your life is meaningless!!!

The world is facing over-population,
but you are wasting the space of our land!!!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Joke of The Day

Palestine people can rely on Malaysia's continued support to build an independent Palestinian Nation. (PM,2009)




Okay....



this is either the most heart-warming declaration for a brotherhood,
or the worst joke of all the time....



First question,
Who are you, Malaysia?


Second question,
What can you do, Malaysia?


BOLEH cakap, BOLEH bakar bendera Amerika dan Israel


what else can you do?


Don't joke la please,
you don't even have a nucklear or chemical weapon.


You can't even protect yourself,
mind your own business ok???


In fact, you do not even have the ability to cause threat for world peace,
what makes you think that you can contribute for Palestine's independent war?


Nobody knows you la, Malaysia....
Nobody is afraid of you lar, Big Horse!!!


I am not a pro-Israel, but as a Malaysian,
rather than sokong blindly like you guys,
I dun mind to be one of the pro-Israel,
atleast it makes me feel better!!!

Stop saying how cruel the Jews are,
you canot blame on one side by only measuring the casualty amount.


What do you expect?

You kill me 2 people, I kill you back 2 people???

This is a children's game!!!


Never see you show your sympathy when Israel is attacked by Hamas???


If you really believe in your God,
then you should pray for Israel,

because we all knew Abraham's God, Isaac's God,Jacob's God said,
"I will bless those who bless for Israel"


Ya, that's a true prayer....
NOT curse other political party leader and his party to die and face judgement!!!


What kinda prayer is that?
tell me!!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

The Advice by an old man

The pastor gave us an advice as the identity of an old man.





Young men,



If you do everything, only for the sake of money, you will fail.


If you do everything, only for the sake of your own personal interest, you will fail.


If you do everything, only for the sake of pleasing other people, you will fail.



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How true?






My name is JT, a.k.a. Dark Shadow
Good night, and good luck.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Yew WeiXin

365days already, one year,
so fast, so unbelievable.

Thanks for taking good care of me,
you're a good girlfriend.

I cant imagine my days in Liverpool without you,
no hot soup and big breakfast....

Sometimes, my joke and temper are bad,
I know....

But still,
you know I really love you.

Anyway, I will try to improve myself for you,
because you deserved a better me....

Thanks for the memories,
and now I declare....

NEW CHAPTER, here we come!!!!

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Sushi Zanmai....

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Raisin's favourite food....

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nice one

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'Inglourious Bastreds' for Tarantino's fans!!!

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Happy 1st Anniversary!!!
Love you....

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

An Awesome Friend called Tammy

If Hui Hsien is the most treasured friend I found in Advanced Diploma,
Mun Yi is definitely my Godsend 'Liverpool Treasure' in these months....(and I really mean it)

There are people I would like to thanks, like family and friends,
especially Pui Yee who helped me alot in assignment,
and also Derique who add color in my LJMU and Atlantic Point's life....

Largest contribution and sacrifice???
Miss Raisin!!!
No doubt.... but now I am talking about friendship....
a friend that gives but never ask for repay....

There is a thing I told myself that I must do when I am back to Malaysia,
~to thanks Mun Yi~


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this blog entry is specially dedicated to CHAN MUN YI....




I was thinking to buy a souvenier for her in Europe, and give her when I am back, attached with a thank you card.
But in the end, I didnt write the card because I seriously dont know what to write....

There are too many things I wana tell her, there are too many things I wana thanks her.
and yes I am, I am emotional right now....

Everytime I think back to those shitty days,
I feel blissed that I stil have a friend like her, and this feeling hit my emotion heavily!!!

Nobody can understand my feeling,
nobody realize how much I appreciate Munyi's help (even Munyi herself)....
~perhaps Raisin feel the same~

I remember the day I failed the bloody reading logs~for no reason~
She is the one who encourage me and support me even when she herself is angry and dissapointed for her own result.

~Everyone need someone~
But I....could never imagine....she is the someone that help me when I am down....

In fact, I never really get close to her before that, yes we chat alot, but we seldom hang out together, only with gangs or only in trips....

I feel really sorry and paiseh for giving her trouble you know, intercom to ask her stupid things like "what is the title of the assignment?" and "have you done ur work?"


Well, I need someone to talk to, and someone who talk with me....
when I am panic, when I am stress....

I just feel like I need a friend like her to cool me down, to give me confidence....
My mentality is seriously fucked up in Liverpool once I get the bad news, Raisin experienced the same....

At that moment, me and Raisin couldnt rely on each other because both of us are really moody and dissapointed to the result...
But here come Miss Tammy, to encourage both of us when we are down....

That's friend....
that's the meaning of friendship....

Sometimes, its kinda weird (or normal) to see ppl avoid spending time with a couple in relationship....
Friends tends to give more privacy to the boy and girl because they do not want to be a light bulb....

There was a time, a friend will think that it is the boy's responsibility to take care of the girl, vice versa....
I do not like this idea....seriously....

Despite how you gonna argue with me, I still believe that a true friendship is meant to be forever....

There is no such things like
~ Hey, it's ur girlfriend mah.....How I know wor?~
~Hey, now she is your gf liao mah....Why ask me wor?~

I mean, why wana talk like this to me???
We are friends, we are all friends....
Why things have to change???

Thats the reason why I like Derique and Wei Xiang because they never complain or get bored when they are spending their time with me and Raisin....
(even if they did, I hope it is not often)
3kaki? 4kaki? who cares....as long as we are friends....

Sorry, out of context....
But my point here is....

Mun Yi is really being awesome here because she take the initiative to encourage both me and Raisin even when she herself is in bad mood....

It is really hard to find a true, innocent and helpful friend like her nowadays....
especially at the age of 22....

She....is not my best friend...yet....
And I am sure Im not hers too....yet....(I wish)

But one thing for sure, these three months has just introduce me a Brand New friend,
~Miss Tammy....~

Today I can declare, she is no longer my classmate....but my friend....




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Thanks alot Mun Yi,
you will never understand how much I appreciate you as a friend!!!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Raisin o raisin

it's been 11 months,
nothing much I wana tel you,

but ~I love you~

Thanks for being by my side all the time...I mean....ALL THE TIME....
~no one is doing better than you did when I need someone~

Thank you Yew WeiXin, you are the best!!!
I appreciate what I have~ Brown Sauce~

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Thank You Liverpool

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~30 May 2009~


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~2 September 2009~





no city like Liverpool....

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

The Moment

the moment I hugged Alan,
my heart was hugged by him, and I nearly cry.

Monday, August 17, 2009

谢谢你的爱

我会想念你的,
以后的日子我会好好过的,Judy
































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我的衣服~Judy~



虽然不是很美,但依然要谢谢它在这些日子来的陪伴。。。
如今,我要把它留在英国了。。。。

把它丢弃前,先来个告别仪式,
高挂在房间窗口,对它敬个礼,再说声‘我爱你’。


最后,





































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把它拿来当抹脚布!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Dream come true

I watch a football friendly match of Liverpool F.C. last saturday,

I wonder....
is that considered a childhood dream come true?

Frankly, this is not my dream....
in fact, I never ever dream about it....

But that does not mean that I am not excited to be in Anfield.....

How could I dare to dream?
to step into Anfield and watch The Reds play in their own ground?

I really never think about it, and I never expect this could happen to me.

To meet Steven Gerrard?
to watch his heroic action?
to hear the Kopites sing 'Steve Gerrard Gerrard'?

I can only imagine the atmosphere in Anfield, for years....
I do not dare to dream....

But sometimes, you don't have to do anyting to reach your goal,
and you don't have suffer to gain something.....

It just come into your life and knock your door,
asking you to open up and go for it....

To watch a match in Anfield is like a fate for me,
it is my destiny....
seriously, I really think it is.

I did not pay any effort, or do anything to make my dream comes true.

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This is the day!!!
8August 2009....

Saturday, August 1, 2009

My breath at July'09

July is a happening month for me in UK, emotion and mood are like a roller-coaster ride,
you never gonna know what happen tomorow.

The moment I feel excited like I have met Steven Gerrard,
the next moment I was drag to hell to suffer in silence,

but still the show must go on,
and I stand up once again to say Hallelujah,
because God's love never fail, and I can really feel it....here in UK.

Looking back to my photos in July, I thanks my parents for giving me opportunity to study oversea and playing around here and there.

Ofcourse, my dear shepherd Christ Jesus is always there for me, whenever I need him.
Without him, I am nothing.

I knew He loves me, and He never leave me,
no matter what I have done and what I have said.

All we need is love,
withour love there is nothing left to feel.

Most of us are stress out of assignments lately; people criticize each other and judge each other.
For me, this is something normal, something acceptable, we can't expect everyone to love us anyway.

In fact, many people has already predict this will happen sooner or later.
All we need to do now, is wait, because nothing else we can do.

When we are back to our homeland,
we shall know what we want to know.
and now,

just shut up and look at my pictures!!!

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Dean Walters Building, where we have our seminars

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Everyone loves Alan

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he motivates

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Washing my clothes~~ 3pounds

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Costa Coffee

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romantic

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JJB--paradise of sportswear

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I bought an off-season Euro kit in LFC store.

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Raisin and the Reds

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Opening of Everton Two

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~Movie of the month~

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Grasmere

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Bowness Bay

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Eve, my favourite tutor

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Postcards time

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Raisin@ Starbucks

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Fish N Chips @ Lobster Pot

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visit a small museum

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World Museum Liverpool

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St. John Garden

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Castle @ North Wales

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Pizza time with Munyi and Yuin Yue

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my food

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my drawer

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class rep sleeping in the class

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coffee time

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presentation day, simply enjoy workin with both of them!

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Tian Xia's mix rice~~ new tauke

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Ah Mou visit

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Kenneth joining us at West Kirby

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Crosby Beach, Another Place!

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hsien and iron man

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3 chefts.



That's all....
Here I come, August!!!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

没有。。。
































































这。。。
不是向翻版古天乐致敬的部落格。




我,只想说,

如果爱。。。没有。。。




那,

别谈什么原谅,
别谈什么友情,
更别谈什么珍不珍惜,
还是什么值不值得!

感情不能衡量啊老板!!!




如果,爱。没有

那,这个人一定很可怜,
不爱人,也没人爱。。。




爱人如己,很难。但并不是不可能。


可惜,在我的世界里,只有爱人,或爱自己。


我向来选择哪一样?


我不必多说,天知道。





因为。。。。爱。。。。能遮掩。。。。许多的罪。。。。

Monday, July 27, 2009

Old Friend visit

I feel happy, I feel touched, when friend come to visit me, anywhere, anytime.

Can't describe my feeling.
It was so special you know, to meet a friend that you have known for a long time, in a foregin country.

My brother Kenneth, and a cute friend of mine Ah Mou came to visit me last few days,
feel so happy to see them.

They have been busy to spending their time to find their own friends too, I dun mind that frankly....
I am happy that I can treat them as a guest, lend them my bed, prepare breakfast and dinner for them.
I am really feel happy to do that.

Eventhou I cant hang out with both of them together on the same day, but still, I am happy that they can sacrifice one day for an old friend like me.

Glad to see you in Liverpool, UK!!!

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Ah Mou and JT at Albert Dock, Liverpool.



on sunday....

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Kenneth and JT at Hilbre, West Kirby.



Hope to see them again in Sheffield!!!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Coffee Grand Slam

I like coffee,
triple grandslam mission is done.

Costa, Starbucks, Nero.

Drinking coffee in cafe is like a reward for myself.
Just want to appreciate what I have done, haha,
because if you did not appreciate what you have done, no one will.

Assignments deadline pressure is coming,
I can really feel it.

Coffee time is like a temporary escape from reality.
I dont know why, I really enjoy it much more than drinking alcoholic drinks,

most of the time I will think of alot of past and future when I drink alcoholic drinks,
I feel pessimistic.

Anyway, this is my Triple Grandslam coffee time's picture in Liverpool.



Costa Coffee, 3July 2009,
after submit our Representation assignment.

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Americano, variatons of Espresso



Starbucks Coffee, 10July 2009,
after submit our Hollywood and Genre essay.

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a postcard for a friend that I really appreciate

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Mocha Frappuccino



Nero Coffee, 21July 2009,
after finish our Media Business group presentation,
with Pui Yee and Chien Yi.

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Iced Americano, no close-up of the picture.
I prefer the hot Americano.

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Iced Americano and THE END.

Friday, July 17, 2009

two steps from hell

when I look back to my blog, seems like unhappy things happen often lately.

just two steps from hell, if I continue to make my days unhappy, Im a dead person and nobody cares.

OK, everything ends and everything burns today.

That's enough.

Today is a brand new day, won't look back in anger.




Dear Lord, please forgive me, like I forgive others.

Please teach me how to forgive others, just like how you forgive me.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

我是人。

Rammstein said we are living in Amerika,

I say, we are living in a forest.


新晋导演黄精甫在电影‘江湖’里把黑社会描述成一个森林,
很有意思,很深奥。

其实,那又何必呢?

我们每个人早就活在一个大树林里了。

里头凶则有老虎狮子,温驯则有松鼠兔子。
狡猾则有狐狸野狼,当然还有蛇鼠一窝。

问问自己,到底是哪个动物吧?

人被造原本就是尊贵的,但偏偏很多笨蛋却把自己归类成动物。
说什么人类的祖宗是人猿,说什么进化论,根本就是狗屁,根本就是反宗教主义者。

进化论没能被证明,人类没有证据来确实自己的祖宗是人猿,
没关系!

更糟糕的是,人类却把自己降级成动物。
更笨,更傻海!

最近遇到很多动物,有狗在烧沙爹,有蜜蜂在乱伦,有刺猬在乱插人。
很烦。

当然,我知道大家都有说话的权利,保持沉默的权利。
有伤心的权利,也有开心的权利。
人长那么大了也有资格选择自己的社会圈子。

但,我实在不开心。
因为我不服。
可是我无奈。

早在五六年前就看透了,

人都是自私的,总有邪恶的一面。

对。是这样的。
这世界本就是这样。

不想把自己说成个圣人,不想说‘众人皆醉,唯我独醒’。

我再说一大堆长篇大道你也会觉得我是‘懒有型’。
再无礼的人会说我在‘讲耶稣’。

人本来就是最聪明的,但如今却连动物都不如。
就连动物也不会互相残杀吧!

~醒啦~

you're adult, live like one. (xiang, 2009)
我喜欢这句对白,有够impact,拿来骂人一流。

但,这位Scholar未免outdate点了吧。
如果是我,
我会说,

you're human, live like one. (JT, 2009)


当然,并不是每个都酱贱把自己降级为animal。
也有些高尚的人把自己归类成first-class or second-class。

这原本是学术界里的学位资格。
用意是好的。

好学生和努力的学生本就应该获得一个更高的肯定。
没人敢说这是错的,毕竟好学生也应该得到公平的对待。

但,世界病了。

人开始对数字执著,对级别执著,
也开始忽略别人的感受。

眼里只看到那个。就只有那个。

试问,谁不想拿个first-class回家?
我都想啦。

但,有些人不能,就是不能。
没酱的能力,就是没酱的能力。
免强不来的。

说话,请注意身边人的感受吧,谢谢。
你的一句懒叫话,会打击多少人的信心,你知道吗?

有些时候,学习聆听吧。
不是每个人都想听你讲风流话的。

如果我有一张文凭,我会谢谢我的父母养育之恩,
而不是到处告诉别人我是属于高等动物,还是低等动物。

我是人。

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

football crap

*advise*

this bullshit might not be suitable for particular group.

there is no main argument in this entry, all are craps and my opinions....



Arsenal was English FA main concern a few years ago because their squad is lack of local English player.

Since the invasion of Russian and American to English football, Premier League has become the most entertaining yet commercialized football league of the world.
But the positive thing is, this does not degrade the quality of Premier League standard.

Even thou the Big Four has been criticized for their financial situation, but they remain strong for their status in Europe.
Once again they dominate 3 seats in the semi-finals of Champions League this year.

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But the Big Four has slowly turned to become an United Nations, particularly Chelsea.
As for Liverpool and Arsenal, their manager just simply loves their soil too much.

Follow the steps of Arsene Wenger to bring French players into his squad, Rafa Benitez is addicted to buy Spaniard to his team too.

How many Spanish player have Rafa brought to Anfield?
I can simply name them, Torres, Reina, Riera, Arbeloa, Alonso....
not forget to mention some failure signing like Morientes and Pelligrino,
and also our Juventus match hero Luis Garcia.

Is Liverpool an English club?
It is owned by American and managed by Spanish.

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Even the coaching team and squad are form by Spanish.

Will English people feel proud for Liverpool's achievement under Rafa???
How many players Liverpool FC has contribute to the national team???

Gerrard and Carragher are the only pure Scouse in Liverpool, and ofcourse the only English player in the team.
But unfortunately Gerrard's position is clashed with Lampard and Carragher has always been left-out since Ericksson's gone.

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Can you believe that?
one of the most successful club in England,
only contribute one player for the national team???

Well, I understand that they are still trying to get the first Premier League's title,
since the take over by BSkyB,

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Thanks to Rupert Murdock's curse,
English football has become commercialized,
and Liverpool FC is perhaps still struggling to survive in this situation.

Money....bribe....match fixing....
there are many rumours or claims to be made....
who dare to say this is not gonna happen???

I did not mean that Manchester United and Chelsea win the trophy by their money attack,
this is ridiculous and contradicted to Liverpool's situation in Istanbul.

But one thing for sure, Alex Ferguson is very very good in using media to gain the club's power, that's why many people like Manchester United for no reason.

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not gender discrimination, but sadly....
some girls are just too innocent....


You can ask a fellow who do not understand football, but he would probably heard about Manchester United, just like how I recognize New York Yankees and New Zealand All-Black.

Everyone is crazy about Manchester United, but I dun believe that....
I only believe the Manchester United fans who witness 1999 miracle against Bayern Munich, I only believe the Manchester United fans who keep their loyal support to the club when Mourinho has kick their ass.

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Alex Ferguson, is the most tricky manager of the world, if you look at the newspaper, how they portray Manchester United, you will know that in media world, they tend to educate ppl that Man.United is the hero, Chelsea is the villain.

Poor man....some ppl are just too stupid to follow the trend.
Which is why, I always pay my respect to loyal Arsenal fans.

Thanks to Mourinho, Chelsea is still considered a bad football club nowadays.
From his high profile fashion and crazy statement, we can clearly see that this fella thinks that he is football model.
He wants people to know him and talk about him, but he understand Sir Alex's status is very strong in English football, which is why, he choose to become a villain instead.

Back to Benitez, this hamster look alike fella, really need to learn how to use media to gain his squad's confidence.
I like him, though he always make some strange decisions, but he is the one who inspired Liverpool's spirit, to become a Come-Back King.

Ferguson was given the title "Sir" in 1999, for making English football proud in Europe.
But when Benitez come back from Istanbul, he got nothing but only the tribute by Kopites.

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Pitty....
I did not mean that he should have get himself called "Sir Benitez", but please....atleast appreciate what he has done okie???

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If you compare Benitez with Ferguson fairly, Ferguson is nothing.
Seriously, I dare to say that.

How many experience Ferguson got in these years?
How many years have Rafa manage Liverpool?
His squad was a shit in 2005, Traore, Barros, Cisse, Biscan, Kewell....
these people did not contribute much to the triumph that night.

In the end, Liverpool need to rely on Gerrard to become the teams' inspiration!!!

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miracle start from Olympiakos

By the time Rafa has brought Champions League back to England in 2005,
Ferguson was still being criticized by media for his poor coaching stlye in his earlier career.

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OK, Rafa learned that you must please the press to please the world.
First step to do, you must gain your publicity.
Tongue war happen last season, for me it is boring, everyday is the same old shit.
But the media like it, who cares?

18 titles was an mission impossible for Manchester United last time, but Ferguson make it happen.
Main reason-- I say--it is because of his media influence.
You cannot doubt that, this could directly or indirectly affect your squad confidence, and referee decisions!!!!

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I never see Benitez did that!

New season is coming, I can't wait to see what will happen.
No matter what, Liverpool will never walk alone.

Every season I will wait for the day to come, the day when Liverpool is crown as the King of England.
I will wait, with patience and loyalty, just like how Israelis wait for the Messiah.

Nevermind is Liverpool considered as a real English club or not...
Liverpool was the proud of England anyway, today we live in a Manchester United's era and no one can change that in recent years.

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Glenn Johnson's arriving means Liverpool got three English players at this moment.
But that doesnt excite me really.

I dun give a damn about English national, firstly I am not an English, secondly I am not their supporter.

English players might feel proud to be recruited into English national team, but for me, I dun care how many English nationals comes from Anfield.

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English nationals sucks anyway, because Steve McClaren trust his old friends in Manchester United too much.
So what???

Say bye bye to Euro Finals 2008.
Don't blame Gerrard, because it is not his fault.
It is your fault to put him into that position.

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Cappello should learn from this silly mistake!

Oh yeah, by the way, can anyone please remind me who is the King of Europe in 2008?

Yes?

I beg your pardon??

Spain? did you said Spain???

Oh I see, now I remember, Spain is the champion, Torres scored the winning goal in the final.

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El Nino the Kop!!!

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the Spaniard

Who cares about being proud of the England football or not???
no one appreciate you anyway.

When you scold at the English national team, you are actually scolding at Manchester United, beware....

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Liverpool, you will never walk alone....

Monday, July 6, 2009

silence

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silence

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my words like silent raindrops fell, and echoed.




Halo, darkness....my old friend

I have come to talk with you again.



In restless dream I walk alone,

in the naked light I saw,

people talking without speaking and hearing without listening.




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Silence like a cancer grow.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

technology idiot, MU fans

Yes, I am a technology idiot, I hate new technologies, because I just simply cannot adapt to it....

I got a phone, old Nokia phone, not that I dunwana buy a new phone you know, just....dun feelike changing....I hate to learn new things about technology....new device, new machine....all those shit....

Well, ofcourse I realize the importance of it....but sometime....I just lazy....
Perhaps in future I will try to use the new things, new handphone, new MP4, ya....maybe.....

Okay, Wimbledon 2009 is over, I never miss the Men's Single Final since 2004.
This is the first time I did not watch it, eventhough I am staying at UK now....

Mainly because I do not have any newspaper to read everyday....I mean....newsPAPER....the press....

I got a laptop with Internet access, but sometimes, I really dun understand, why cant I just read the news on the net???

Well, I just cant....I duno why....
Without newspaper, I am outdated, I duno wad is the latest sports news, I duno what is the latest football transfer rumours and confirmed deal.....and well....I duno what time is the Wimbledon Finals....

Anyway, I think Federer has just beat Roddick in the Final, I just check the result online, but dun have confidence to myself....I wish I didnt check wrongly for last year or 04 final result.....

You see, I really cannot trust myself for doing things online....even checking result....

Okay, two night ago I just found out Michael Owen has land to Man.United....haha....
I think many M.U. fans will be shock to hear the news....is he THE ONE to replace C.Ronaldo???
Or you got Karem Benzema????

Haha, let me be frank, Michael Owen career is almost over if he continue addicted to bet on horse racing.
He has a glass leg anyway, how many years has he took to recover his old injury???

MU fans used to laugh at him, but now...Owen is urs....so......you got any comment???

If you asked a MU fans, he will probably answer you, "Who cares? he is a free agent anyway..."

Haha, stop crying your heart out loud.... stop your lie....bloody fools....

Everyone know he is a time detonator, he could explode anytime....
It is danger to keep him in the squad, and damn, you need to pay him wages weekly.....

Now, you tell me, is Owen and United a perfect match???

haha, if he would land on Anfield again, MU fans will insult him and curse Liverpool like a freaking maniac....
But now, let's see how things go....

I know you wish Owen will score in Anfield again, haha, I would love to see that too, seriously....
you probably need a striker like him to take the revenge....

MU fans are probably the most ego fans in the world, I mean it...because they won too many trophy....

Seriously....they are the cream of the world at this moment....
Liverpool do not win any trophy in last year, but they deserved some respect, just like how I respect Manchester United!

but one thing for sure.....

M.U. fans need to learn some manners and respect to other people, same goes to Ronaldo!!!

Friday, July 3, 2009

volume 1--- Life

Allright, I am not Quentin Tarantino,
Chapter 1 means Chapter 1, Chapter 2 means Chapter 2.



Chapter 1:

Infant and the shepherd



Chapter 2:

Origin of innocent



Chapter 3:

Adolescence from Gasthof zum Pommer



Chapter 4:

The Butterfly Effect



Chapter 5:

The dish best served cold



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"if only ppl can be so simple n true to their hearts" (Way, 2009)



What will happen in volume 2 ???
Let's take a Bermuda Triangle's adventure.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Summarize of my Liverpool life in June

It's been a month.
Here I am at Liverpool, not excited perhaps, but still very glad that I am here.
Loaded with alot of assignments and readings, very stress....but it's not boring....

This is my summary of Liverpool life this month.
Let's go back to the start.

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my hostel, Atlantic Point, 121.6

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my desk

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my bed

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first day walk

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first night walk

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first Sunday service, inside the van

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ChinaTown-- dead city

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my legendary frozen milk

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first meal with yuin yue and munyi

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meet up with siang yi

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induction

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the famous Scouse

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first meal co-operate with Derique

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Liverpool Cathedral

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outside of cathedral

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me at Chester

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Chester Cathedral

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The iconic statue in Cheshire Oaks

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First DVD borrowed from library

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first seminar drawing with Pui Yee and Chien Yi

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me and Lambanana outside learning resource centre

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the famous Butter Chicken presented by me--
first successful attempt after the dissapointment of Herb's Chicken

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they simply love it (paiseh)

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fongway birthday, ABC big family

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potential couple, isyalah....

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explore to Liverpool One, one year anniversary

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Liverpool jerseys for toodler

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Church of Our Lady and Saint Nicholas

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night lepak

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this is Albert Dock

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This is Anfield

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Bill Shankly who made people happy

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me and Gerrard

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the Kop

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Champions League trophy 2005

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drink some beer will ya

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pohyi fallen asleep in movie screening

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Double Indemnity-- Film Noir

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Dark Shadow

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sweet

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friday gathering at church

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some mabuk fellas' vandalism

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Tesco-- one of the most important supermarket for us

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another seminar drawing-- Postmodern City, inspired by Blade Runner

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Coke Pork

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not bad, but too salty

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disco? bar? pub? club? Im not really sure

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Cheeseburger with chips

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I got fucked up here on last Monday and Wednesday

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Hanging out with my friends after thesis consultation

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me and the mini UK banana

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Metropolitan Cathedral

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Cheeseburger that cost 1.50 pound, very nice!!!

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me at York Minster

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Shambles Street- If Im not mistaken

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National Railway Museum at York


That's it-- a very enjoy and wonderful honeymoon on June, shit things do happen anyway, but I am fine....


July and August situation are predictable,


because....



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this is my readings--- crazy shit!!!



Keep holding on....

Friday, June 26, 2009

Kasihan Mikel Jackson

Michael Jackson has died unexpectedly, everyone shock and sad.....
not sure about how Eminem, Edward Moss and Wayans Brother feel at this moment.

Well, despite the bad publicity, he is indeed a good singer and dancer.
People makes bad jokes of him and insult him when he was still alive, only the loyal fans were giving him fully support and never forget what he has done for the community and world.

The world is cruel, you love the world but the world hate you.
No matter how many charity you have done, one silly mistake will spoil your career, because people will always remember a tiny black dot in a white paper.

Blame the media, blame the world, blame the God, well....
We all got to admit, the world is not fair.

Some people are lucky enough to strike back, but not Michael Jackson.
The negative media portrayal are too much for him, too much....
If he were Leslie Cheung, he would have commit suicide.
But he did not.

Think about how much pressure he feel all this while, but he still want to hold the last gasp and make the last world tour concert.
Too bad, one of the most historic concert by Michael Jackson never happen.
No birthday celebration on 29 August, instead, he left his fans dissapointment and sadness....

Nah, now entertainment news will tell Michael Jackson's story, saying how great he was, how nice he is....
Fuck the press....fuck the paparazzi.....fuck the dogs.....

I am not Michael Jackson fans, I dont give a damn what is the reason he want to covert into Islam.
All I know is, no one can beat his dance, and he got the largest fan-base since Elvis and John Lennon....


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R.I.P Mikel

Monday, June 22, 2009

pulp reading logs

Few hours ago, I stated that I have never been so hardworking before.

Ironically, hours later, shit things happen.

Well, try your best and put your effort is often not enough to achive something.

That's all.

Helldays are coming....

pulp fiction Pictures, Images and Photos
Okay, I got fucked up this time.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Life is busy....

after few weeks of honeymoon in Liverpool, it is time for freedom fighting~~bloody assignments~~

Life started to get busy, no time to study all those articles and books, frankly, I have never been so hardworking since secondary school.

This is the first time I really utilize a learning resource centre, borrow DVDs and books, search and request for extra further readings.

Nothing much to share actually, two pictures will tell you nearly everything.

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Sunday lunch, sandwiches and Ginger beer.


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In the end, I dun even got the time to drink the beer, just two sandwiches will make my day colorful, haha.


Gtg to class now, 8am!!!
Ciaoz....

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Manchester Airport incident

When we reach Manchester Airport, there are two queue in imigration centre, one for UK residents, another for foreigners.
The queue for the UK residents is longer than foreigner, but the thing is, it moves faster than foreigners did.

Imigration officers always gives priority to their own citizens first, and we all as foreigners got to wait.
Why did they do things in that way???
There are two reasons I guess.

First, they need to be careful before they give permission to foreigners to enter their country.
They need to check our passport, our financial status, period of staying, everything.
But they do not need to do this to UK residents, so why don't they allow the UK residents to pass thru the border first?
Pre-caution to terrorism and H1N1, it is reasonable.

Secondly, because you should give priority to your own citizens, that's simple!!!
They are your people, who share the same nationality with you, ofcourse you should do that.
This is very reasonable too.

Frankly, I don't see anything wrong to their policy.

My unsatisfaction?
I wish they can open up more imigration counters so that we don't need to wait so long....
1 hours man....very tiring!!!

If you look back to Malaysia's policy, you will cry.
Sadly, Malaysia government always give priority to foreigners.

When the officers see a foreigner, is like seeing a malaikat, and their eyes will shine like a superstar.

Damn it!!!

Even in the restaurant, the waiter and waitress will give priority to the foreigners because they always think that the foreigners have more money.

That's Malaysian!
so sick.....

If you do not respect your own people in your own country, who are going to respect you???
Too bad....

Learn from other people la, Malaysia!!!
Wake up la, Malaysia....

I love my country, but I hate their bloody policy.
It was not made to protect their own people.

It was made to protect a certain race, which is a race that need to be protected, a weaker race.

They think they are first-class people? call themselves the "prince of earth"?

Who say racism never happen???
Fools!!!

We are not protected!!!
No people gonna respect us.

"Fucking Asians" they call us.
Thanks to your STRATEGIC policy, Malaysia!!!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

KL-Abu Dhabi-Manchester-Liverpool

Liverpool is not just another place, it means something to anyone of us.

Football passion....Degree level....Oversea's dream comes true.....

It is always excited to reach a brand new place, yet feel scared for not adapting their culture...yet.

Now I reach UK already, didnt feel much also frankly.
Liverpool is a very quiet and peaceful place, in another word----boring.....

People sleep early and wake up early, all shops close at 5PM sharp, very discipline....
No mamak, no lepak, no "street racing" and Mat Rempit (which are the best thing)

The street looks sorrow yet beautiful.
The air is fresh and cold.
The sun shine bright but not freaking hot.
You can see the moon and twinkle little star because not much of tall and big trees in Liverpool.

Here is some picture from KLIA, Abu Dhabi Airport, Manchester Airport, and Liverpool....

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Departure

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Counter A

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my family

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inside the plane

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Etihad---Middle East Airline

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raisin and me

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my old friend

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our meal

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Abu Dhabi International Airport

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Manchester.

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This is the moment--- we land at UK!!!

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Imigration at Manchester Airport, it sucks....

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Welcome to Liverpool !!!



Thats all for the first day.....
quite busy for buying food and stuff these few days, not yet settle down myself....
I'll keep in touch with you guys and update myself again a.s.a.p

Godbless,
Happy Sunday!!!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

you'll never walk alone

liverpool FC rocks!!!
Liverpool, here I come!!!

About 10 years ago when I was still a boy,
I already like Liverpool FC so much and had become their loyal fans.

I never imagine I can go to Liverpool ten years later,
tomorow is the day....
this is the day!!!

28th May 2009!!!


Few days later, we shall meet our lecturer again....

emerson
Dr. Iqbal Akthar!!!

Oopss......wrong picture....
This is an Iqbal's look alike, Brazilian footballer--- Emerson!!!


Now, this is the real Dr.Iqbal
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*****


iqbal
Dr. Iqbal Akthar!!!
(more handsome I guess)


*****
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Allright, back to Liverpool FC....

08/09 season is Liverpool's best premier league performance ever in recent years.

--86 points, runner up--

77 Goals Scored,
Goal Difference 50+,
only beaten twice,

this is a figure Man.United did not reach....

Eventhough Benitez' men did not lift the trophy this year, but they definitely can raise their head up when they leave the pitch!!!

YNWA!!!
Shankly Gates, I can't wait to visit Anfield!!!

"You'll Never Walk Alone" is Liverpool FC's anthem since early 1960s.
There are alot of versions recorded by many famous singers, include Frank Sinatra, Johnny Cash, Elvis Presley, and The Three Tenors.

Gerry & The Pacemakers' version is my favourite....

But we all cannot denied that, Liverpool fans "Kopites" can sing better than all of them!!!
The massed chorus of Kop supporter is the best!!!

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Kop sing YNWA after victory against Chelsea in Champions League 2005 is one of the best massed chorus ever!!!


Today on, every breath I take when I reach Liverpool, YNWA will be played in my heart!!!
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When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

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I'll never walk alone, we'll never walk alone!!!

Godspeed!!!




Saturday, May 23, 2009

是谁?


如果我们三个人里面只有一个人会成功,我希望那个人是你。。。。

如果我们三个人里面只有两个人会成功,我希望那两个人是你们。。。。


说真的,我。。。。并不介意做个小人物。。。。

只希望你们比我更出色!


黑影子。。。。又怎么样?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Stevie G honours

Steven Gerrard, the Liverpool captain,
was today named FWA Footballer of the Year....

here are some photographic tribute by liverpoolfc.tv to Stevie G's incredible season.


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Player of the Century:
Stevie G reaches 100 Liverpool goals versus PSV.


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The Real deal:
Stevie's back for the home leg as Madrid are beaten 4-0


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His best week at the club?
Next the captain scores in a 4-1 victory at Old Trafford against Manchester Unite before kissing the TV cameras.



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What a trio:
Stevie is congratulated to his first Premier League hat-trick versus Aston Villa


We all know, Liverpool are a different team without him.
For the past few years, Liverpool rivals claimed that The Reds cannot compete with other big teams without Stevie G.

Rafa Benitez's signed of Alonso, Mascherano, Kuyt and Torres indeed release Gerrard's burden.
And today, Liverpool can still keep winning without Gerrard.

In this season, Gerrard and Torres only paired up together in 12 matches so far, due to their back to back injury.
We all know how scary Liverpool heroic duo can be.
Their absence makes Liverpool's attack lack of creative and energetic organization.

Liverpool is still doing good this season without rely too much of Gerrard, but the both 4-4 final score against Chelsea and Arsenal proved the importance of Gerrard to control the midfield defense.

Stevie G come back at the match against Newcastle and WestHam, obviously, we can see a very different Liverpool, more confidence and more solid.

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scored twice against Hammers after back from injury


Back to the FWA Footballer of the Year Award, as a Liverpool fans, I think Gerrard deserved that, 23 goals in a single season (15 goals in EPL), this is a remarkable figures for a midfielder.

Last month, Ryan Giggs from Manchester United has been awarded PFA Player of the Year.
I am really surprise that Gerrard was pipped to Giggs, no offense to MU fans.
But I don't think anyone deserved this award better than Gerrard, except Ronaldo and Torres perhaps.

Now, don't get me wrong, Giggs is probably one of the best left winger of the world since 1999 Champions League.
He is good at dribbling, passing and crossing.
He is an expert of corner kick and free kick.

Beside, he is a nice guy, a nice team leader.
Ofcourse he deserved this award, but not this year.

It is so funny because after so many great years he have at MU, but he win the award in a year when he is not even a first choice player or key player for MU this season.
There were only 12 starting line up (until the day he receive the award) at this season for Giggs, scored 2 goals.

Something wrong with the panel huh???

Lets make a small comparison for their performance in Premier League so far.

Starting line up:
Giggs, (14)
Gerrard, (28)

Goal:

Giggs, (2)
Gerrard, (15)

On Target:

Giggs, (10)
Gerrard, (40)


Do I need to say more???

Even Chelsea's manager Guus Hiddink and Milan's Carlos Ancelotti agree that Stevie G is the best player of the world at 2009 and think the PFA award should be given to him.


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Steven Gerrard, truly the living legend.



Sunday, May 10, 2009

tears of child

when we talk about the relationship between a mother and a son (or daughter),
surely we remember the tears of joy and tears of dissapointment.

Mother can cry for her son, when he get a bronze trophy in the primary school story-telling competition.
This is what we called tears of joy.

Mother can cry for her son, when she found he skip classes for playing computer games at cyber cafe.
This is what we called
tears of dissapointment.

This kind of tears is something very normal, almost every mother experienced that.
I believe we as a child, we saw our mother cried for us before.

What about us?
we cried too, for foods, for toys, for shit.

There are two other kind of cries, and they can only be heard by one side.

First kind,
it can only be heard by your mum, but not yourself.

Guess what?
you cried when you were born.

You can never heard your own cried, but your mum can, and she did.
Think about how she felt, think about how much she loves you, think about how much she is willing to give you after she give birth to you and she heard your cried.

Second kind,
it can only be heard by yourself, but not your mum.

Guess what?
you cried when your mother pass away.

In this case, your mother can never heard your cried.


These two kind of tears,
show us the biggest contrast of feeling between our mum and ourselves.

One is heart-warming, another is heartbreaking.

Today is Mother's Day, I thanks my mum for everything.
and I thanks God too for giving me the best mum of the world.

Come on, let's wish our mother Happy Mother's Day!
I love you, Ma!!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

after 7 years

I can't really recall the last time I went to a family trip.
Melaka or Penang? I can't remember.....back to 7 years before I guess.

Last Thursday I went to Genting with family and cousins family, stay for just one night, celebrating my mum's birthday and my uncle's birthday.

It's a memorable night and day.
There were fireworks shown from 11.45PM until 12AM, as the next day is Labour Day.
We watched it from the view of hotel, the heights is nearly perfect!!!


~here are some pictures taken by me~

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everyone enjoy the show!!!


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this small fellow tried to capture the breathtaking moment by pencil and paper.


Oh ya, not forget to mention, we stayed in Maxims Hotel, which is the most expensive hotel in Genting Highland.
Please don't ask me about the rates, I am not pretty sure.
But if I'm not mistaken, it is a Signature Suite.


If you asked me, I think the room and service of Maxims Hotel is even better than the 6stars Palace of the Golden Horses.
The environment is nice and comfortable, it is flexibly enough to make you feel like a home or keep you awake in a working mood.


So....let's start from the....
Toilet!!!


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this is something very common nowadays, toilet bowl with the washer that can clean up your ass after you finish bombing Tokyo.

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nice one.

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bath tub and TV.

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big mirror that allows you to watch yourself fully naked. (if you want)

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TV speaker volume master and telephone.


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As I said earlier, the room can be a nice working space too.

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computer and internet connection are available.


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Printing, unlimited ink and paper refills and free of charge.


Beside, you can grab some snacks or fruits whenever you want.
Chocolate bars, candies, fresh apples and pears.
But I heard lastime they provided more varies of choice.

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*refreshments are not free of charge* (too bad!!!)


some other nice facilities provided....


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plasma TV

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DVD player with USB port

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housewife needs.

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mahjong set and mahjong table, but unfortunately....

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*cash is not provided*


Basically that's all in the room.
So, here are some pictures to remind myself what have I done in this trip.


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my uncle's birthday cake

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love pearl for my mum

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*sorry, you can't find any pearl in this picture*

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two in one family!


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supper at Pizza Factory, I prefer their 油炸鬼

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cameo in Customer Service

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pujuk my cousin tidor

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gym and breakfast



and we saw 3 Lamborghini
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lunch at VietNam House

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the food and service are nice

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I ordered Ice Coffee with Milk, this is what I got.

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I stare at the cup of ice and the coffee bean, don't know what to do....

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In the end, have to ask the waitress to help me.
*paiseh*


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this is my lunch, beef salad and ice-coffee, perfect combo!!!

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take my cousin for a car ride.

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I miss old days.

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satisfaction.

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children can always reach happiness easily.

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we all sayang him so much!!!


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here we go!

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hot jakuzzi

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chasing around

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fantastic posing

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saw his dream car?

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elephant ride

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inside the lift
p/s: this is a natural pose....


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kids are sooooooo cuteeeeee....

Around 7PM, we were ready to go home!

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skyway station crowded by people, waited for almost an hour!

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firstime ever I take cable car at night, not bad la, but too many haze, no scenery to watch.


This is it, a memorable trip.
~30th April and 1st of May~

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

哲学家和诗人的故事

嘉腾讲古仔时段
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话说曾经有两个好朋友,

一位是个哲学家,
另一位是个诗人。


该名哲学家脑子里满有伟大的思想,足以影响世人们的道德伦理观念。

国王非常欣赏他,就叫仆人送了他一把用黄金制作的龙椅,表示对他的喜爱和纪念他对国家所做出的贡献。


另一边厢,那位诗人则拥有令世人羡慕的聪明才华,能写出优美感人的诗歌。

但他非常低调,虽然世人都喜欢念他的诗,却没有人认识他。


有一天,这名诗人听闻他的好友(哲学家)会在家里摆设宴席,
邀请了许许多多的亲朋好友。。。政治家。。。军官大使。。。
大家一同庆祝国王送他龙椅的大喜事。

诗人决定前赴这场宴会。
虽然那时侯大雨倾盆,但他仍要赶上路途与老朋友见面。


宴会里每个人身光颈亮,正陶醉在跳舞作乐时,


突然!!!那诗人出现了。
头发凌乱像囚犯,衣服破烂像乞丐,满身脏脏臭臭。
由于外头正下着大雨,他在赶路时鞋子已经沾上了许多污泥。


众人看到他进来后,全场鸦雀无声。。。
但,那诗人却胆敢地,大摇大摆地走到台前。。。

在众目光下,他跳上了龙椅,
用双脚把污泥狠狠地踩在龙椅上!



诗人大声喊道,


“我亲爱的好朋友啊,你在哪里?

快出来跟我见面!我要拯救你啊!

你已经被荣华富贵给弄瞎了,导致你沉醉在世人的虚浮之声里。

我今天就要用双脚把你的傲慢给践踏,再践踏,
把它给踩扁,把它给踩散!

好让你不再沉睡,好让你不再迷失!”



诗人边踩边喊,盼望他的昔日知己可以露面。


哲学家在台下看到这一幕后,认出了这位旧朋友。
他赶紧冲上台前,拥抱了那位诗人。。。
满眼热泪地感激那位诗人为他所做的一切!



哲学家大声叫道,


“我久违的老朋友啊,我感谢你今天把我从这个荣华富贵的无底坑里给拯救出来。

如果不是你,我依然沉醉在世人的宴乐当中!”


说着说着,哲学家手里拿起了一块白布,
用力地把龙椅给擦干净。


他边抹边说道,


“今天,我要用白布把你的妒忌给全部擦去,再擦去,
把它给抹走,把它给抹掉!

好让你的心不再诡诈,好让你的心更加清洁!

我要拯救你啊!”

Saturday, April 25, 2009

一生何求 唉





生。。。无人能选

老。。。无人能逃

病。。。无人能免

死。。。无人能胜


当婴孩诞生时,每个都是紧紧地握住拳头,势要以双手打拼世界。
但每个人死去时,都只能无能为力地把双手摊开,什么也带不走。

人活在热光之下短短几十年,再多成就再多江山也都转眼成空。
亚历山大帝占领了多少领土,死的时候也不过是被葬在棺材里。


人生到底求什么?

人为什么要来?为什么又要去?

既然要去?又何必来?


一个人死后往何处去?
如果不知道,恐怕只能潇洒地唱一句。。。


“不要问我从哪里来。。。”

Friday, April 10, 2009

Commemorate the Sacrifice of God

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Jesus had finished praying for himself, his disciples, and for all believers. He then went into an olive grove.


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Judas came to the grove, guiding a detachment of soldiers and some officials from the chief priests and Pharisees. They were carrying torches, lanterns and weapons.


After Jesus was questioned by Annas, Caiaphas and Herod, they then brought Him to Pontius Pilate.


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"It was your people and your chief priests who handed you over to me. What is it you have done?"

"My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jews. But now my kingdom is from another place."

"You are a king, then!" said Pilate.

Jesus answered,"You are right in saying I am a king. In fact, for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me."

"What is truth?" Pilate asked.


Pilate went out to the Jews and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him."


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Do you want me to release 'the king of the Jews'?"
They shouted back, "No, not him! Give us Barabbas!"



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roman soldier
"Hail, king of the Jews!" said the Roman soldiers.


crucify him!
Chief priests and their officials shouted, "Crucify! Crucify!"


"Here is your king," Pilate said to the Jews.

But they shouted, "Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!"

"Shall I crucify your king?" Pilate asked.

"We have no king but Caesar," the chief priests answered.


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Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified.


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carry the cross
So the soldiers took charge of Jesus. Carrying his own cross, he went out to Calvary.



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leg nailed
Here they crucified him,


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3 cross
and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle.


it is finished
Jesus said, "It is finished."


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With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.


He was crushed for our inquities,
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his stripes we are healed.


Jesus love you
Jesus Love You....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

四个小和尚

有四个和尚路径一间破烂的庙宇,看见那里非常宁静,
于是,大师兄便叫师弟们一起在那庙里打坐悟道。

大家放下背包行李,四人围成一个圆圈,准备闭上双眼的时候,
发现天色暗了。。。
大师兄便叫小师弟去拿点灯油来照明。

小师弟把灯油拿来后,放在四人中央,
四个和尚便关上眼睛,心里念起经来。

忽然,一震轻风把灯油的火给灭了。

小师弟小声说道,“糟糕!灯火灭了!怎么办?”

(其实,如果他正在专心打坐,理应不会发现灯火灭了)

三师兄听到后,立刻骂道,“你打坐怎么可以分心呢?”

二师兄听到后,又向二人骂道,“你们俩怎么可以在打坐时分心呢?”

这时,大师兄仍然闭上嘴巴,眼睛稍微睁开,向四周偷瞄了一下。。。
心里想道,“阿弥陀佛,幸好我没有分心。。。”



这故事没有牵涉宗教成份,但却暴露了我们在日常生活当中常常犯下的错误。

我们看到一些我们认为不过眼的事情,总是忍不住想要发表意见。

我们听见别人在论断某某人时,总是想加上一把嘴凑热闹。



我本人就有过酱的经历。

听见一班朋友们在说谁谁谁的坏话时,心里不断提醒自己,
我应该小心自己的言语,不要加盐加醋!

沉寂了一段时间,口痒了,不知不觉便开口说起话来。
但我却没有发现,我口里所说的,跟他们并没有什么分别。

一心想要混入他们的话题,但最后我所讲的同样是像他们那恶毒难听的话。

直到话说完了以后,才恍然大悟!
“原来我也不过如此。。。。”



那些曾经被我在背后插一刀的朋友:

在此我要向你们说一声抱歉!!!



但我知道,在我不在你们当中的时候,
我也很可能会被你们往我背后暗刺一刀。



人。。。就是这样。。。。
朋友有时也会这样。。。。

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I'm with You

chatting with paiwah online, listening to Avril Lavigne's "I'm with You",
it makes me think about you....
yes, we talked about you,
my dear friend....

A friend of mine once told me, "you can have alot of good friends in your life, but never choose one to become your best friend"

But frankly, you are my best friend in my life....
because I know you are not going to betray me....never....ever....
A friend that understand me, a friend that can share interest with me....
It's been a while I didnt hear anything from you, I'm worry.

I knew you more than 10years,
we play together and talk dirty jokes together,
we get drunk together and chat at balcony for hours.

How are you doing?
We all miss you so much....
Everday I pray for you,
may God gives you strength and courage to walk through these fires and storms!!!

today is probably the first time that I'm gonna tell you,
I miss you....
this blog is specially dedicated to you,

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August 2006....

Next, I must mention another good friend in this post.
Her name is Pui Yee, today is her 22nd birthday!!!

Hope she can find her sweetheart soon lar!!!
I always wish to see her paktor, because I know she is a good girl,
and I know she will be a good gf....

It's been longtime I didnt hang out with her already lor,
miss those moment we study together, shoot drama together and edit video together,
she is really a tough girl....with strong will and passion!

Well, she is my classrep in UK, so....
I'm gonna treat her very very very nice these few months, haha....

pui yee and me
i really sayang kawan ni....
Happy Birthday 2009!!!!

Anyway, enough for today lar,
if I continue to describe my emo feeling again,
it will definitely spoil my cool image!!!

My name is JT aka Dark Shadow,
good night....good luck....

Saturday, March 28, 2009

my name is JT aka Dark Shadow

first entry in my new blog....
allow me to introduce myself....

my name is jiateng.....
nothing much to tell also lar....

Lastime I use Friendster for blogging, then switch to MSN space....
But, friendster sucks lar wei...my blog kena hack gaogao....
MSN not bad lar, but no people will visit wan....haha....

I guess most of my friends know I like movies, and I like Liverpool FC.....bla bla.....
and yes, I blog about movies....blow water only la....all are crap and bullshit....personal opinion....

visit it if you got interest
http://www.jiatengmovie.blogspot.com/

So, in this new blog (the one you are reading right now), I will talk more about my life lar, what I like lar, and what I think lar...it depends on my mood lor....haha....

I can chat any topic with you, the thing is....
will I bored you???

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I like this picture, this is the real me....
All my friends know it.


These few weeks on I will do my E-learning online....
Have to read alot of articles, online journals, e-books, participate in forum and comment to other people's post la.....
Then got reading logs to complete somemore, and ya, need to plan for my thesis....
I have to do all these shits before I go UK to further my study!!!

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I don't know what is going on to the E-learning system.
The webpage load so damn slow, and it makes us so frustrating!!!


But Mr.Iqbal ask us not to complain,
so I guess we all got to be patient....

Frankly, loaded with this much of heavy works really makes me feel so tired, and I really don't have the mood to study overseas at this moment.
I mean, it should be a happy and fun experience.

Come on, I am going to Liverpool....
perhaps not the most beautiful city in England, but this is the city where my favourite football club belong!!!
I am looking forward to go there....

But when I see the crazy assignments deadline and schedule, I feelike crying, only without tears, haha!!!
Anyway, Liverpool's recent fantastic performance seems like a good sign to welcome me!!!

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Heroic duo *Gerrard and Torres*

Double killed Real Madrid and Manchester United in this season is enough to cheer me up at this moment.
Perhaps Liverpool has a long way yet to go for lifting Champions League trophy again, and MU is still in the advantage position to win the Premier League title....
But anyway, Liverpool's recent performance had already makes me keep holding on to my LJMU study!!!

That's all for this very first entry, chat again nextime!!!